Z's Friend...

Z's friend "A" is moving today. I feel bad for him because that is the first "real" friend he has had. They always hang out and seem to get along great. The have the occasional disagreements, but who doesn't??? We knew they were moving, at first they were only going to move a few streets away, now they are moving to another town. By car it it is about 30 minutes away. I

am sure now that Z is getting himself together and learning coping skills, he will have no problems finding friends who want to spend more time with him. He is a really great kid, has a few issues but I am confident that he will find his way in this great big world..

Annual Review

I had my annual review on Friday...let's just say...didn't go so well. I did get a raise..averaged out to be just over $900 a year. I should be grateful but for some reason I am not. I can't pin point why, but all I know is that I am NOT!

So this is what I have decided...

I am a salaried exempt (I think exempt or maybe non-exempt) employee so I do not have to punch a clock. What ever the hell I am it allows me to receive overtime. When I work overtime I have to fill out a time sheet and hand it in to my boss.

1. I will fill at time sheet out every day, seeing as the perception is I am late because I am not sitting at my desk for the whole 8 lousy hours I am here. My work hours are 8-5, I will be sure to get here at 7:45 am instead of 7:55 am so that I can quietly walk around the building so everyone knows I have arrived. That way if I am NOT at my desk at 8 am atleast I have been seen.

2. All the overtime have worked and never put in for..won't happen anymore!!!

3. I am "a paradox when it comes to relationships" ??? What the FUCK is that supposed to mean?????? Please move the crazy old bitch who falls asleep at her desk all the time so I don't have to see it. I really don't want to listen to her 20 minutes conversations with a gazillion people, it distracts me from what I am doing..just tell her to SHUT UP!

4. Learn tolerance for those I have little tolerance for.....ummm..there are very few people I have little tolerance for. The ones I don't have tolerance for are usually the ones who pretend like they know more than they do, people who cannot accept responsibility for their mistakes and people who have their heads so far up managements asses that you can truly not tell where the management ends and where the other person begins!!!


Midway through my boss asked"Do you have any comments to add."

I replied with "No"

I guess it didn't settle well with him because he asked a few more times before we were done.

What did he want me to say??? Give my opinion, My thoughts? Hell, those would get me fired!!

Sucker For A Deal & A New Plant

Friday night I transferred a prescription from the CVS in the same town that I work in to the Walgreens that is right down the street from my house. The incentive….$$30.00! Yup, I am a sucker for a deal…this was a great deal! I received a certificate I the mail from Walgreens saying that if I transferred and paid for 1 prescription that the certificate attached to the letter would be validated by the pharmacist and I can use it like money. Just give it to the cashier and I would be all set.

So I did it, and instead of validating the certificate the pharmacist gave me $30 cash!!! Good deal huh…who couldn’t use a little free money? I thought so too..well needless to say I still spent $30 in the store.

While I was there I did buy something I always wanted…a Venus Flytrap!! My husband thinks I am nuts and the plant is just creepy. I just think my husband lived a boring ass childhood and never was intrigued by anything except rap music. It is obvious that his mother never
stimulated his mind!! He asked if it was the same plant as in the movie Little Shop of Horrors and I told him yes. Now his already frail imagination starts going wild with images that this thing will be a big as the one in the movie and gobble everyone in the house up! Gimme a break!

Looking For A New Template

I am looking for a change, need something new and fresh for my blog. Having the same template for to long is like keeping the furniture in the same set up....boring. I like what I have now and want to stay with the same basic idea...unfortunately Zoot is not available...they had more that I liked and I should have downloaded a few more.

So I am going to start the search..again..took me forever to find this one.

I'm A 43....What Are You

Listen, I may answer these questions today and score what I scored. Then take the test tomorrow and score higher or lower. These tests are not perfect. They are accurate for what a person is feeling at the time the test is taken. That said, my score is: 43

Read on and take the test!Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and post it for your friends.
Don't peek, but begin the test as you scroll down and answer.

Answers are for who you are now ... not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today .It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 simple questions, so ... grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question.


1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon - early evening
c) late at night

2. You usually walk ...
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you ...
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with ...
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with ...
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you ...
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted ...
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are ...
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are ...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e)1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b)4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c)4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more likeyou, but don't always trust you, hesitating to be come too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold andadventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your companybecause of the excitement! you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensitive, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. So me people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

Getting Fatter and Adding Excuses

Ok..I am going to go out on a limb and say…We need to get off our lazy asses, put down the super large portions and get moving. I think we have more excuses on why people are fat than kids have excuses for not handing in their homework.

I can say all this because I fall in the over weight category. Wasn’t always this way, in high school I maintained a slim 135-140…then I had my son (I was inmy senior year of high school) and got LAZY. I have succeeded in staying that way for the last 12 years. Yes, getting pregnant helped add the weight but in the long run, it didn’t need to stay that way.

So now we can blame our friends, near or far. If you have gained weight it is possible that it is your friends fault. This is all according to a new study published in the New England Journal of Medicine. That is one I am not buying, I am sorry but most people jam food in their pie holes for comfort, because they are happy, sad, mad, glad…bla bla --> sounds like me! I LOVE anything chocolate, sweet, salty, cheesy and fried. I don’t think my friends or my friends friend’s sister's uncle's mother or brother are to blame for what I love to eat and how much of it I choose to cram in my mouth.

Don't forget that the fat rolls down hill as well. If you are lazy and eat and eat, your kids look at that and do the same thing. Kids learn by example. So now we have created some more fat people. Now the whole world wants to know why there are so many fat and lazy kids. Well with the age of video games and computers they have all stopped going outside to play. Going outside would force children to use their imaginations to have fun. Why bother when they can sit inside and play video games.

GirlZ Gone Wild

What did you want to be when you grew up? Are you what your heart longed to be?? NO..well me either..

I wanted to be an actress or a lawyer. I still long to be a lawyer and when my son is all grown up I will fulfill my dream.

Wanting to be an actress makes me think of these girls who are blasted all over the news. Lindsey Lohan, Britney Spears, Paris Hilton and the list could go on. I often wonder what they are thinking. Are the under so much pressure that they need to misbehave like this?? Is this what being in the spot light does to them?? They are all snapping under pressure, Girlz Gone Wild style..Unfortunately nothing can prepare them for all this..You make millions and go buck wild!

Time to get a grip girls...this is what you signed up for. It is time to get your shit together, get off the cocaine, put your panties back on and stop making complete asses of yourselves. You signed up for the fame and fortune!!

Face Behind The Blog

So I was going to wait till tomorrow to do this and changed my mind.

I would like to thank Nick over at Anything Goes! for tagging me with this. (Even though he is to chicken to post his picture, you can view his fake pic here)

So this is me...







and me in color







Blog Title : Nonsense, tears, bla, bla (I really need a shorter title)
Description : About me and my family.
Why Describes me.
Name : Annmarie P.
Country : USA
Occupation : Quality Coordinator
Email : Ummm...if you need it let me know.
Birthday : February 5th
Fav Color : Blue
Fav Drink : Coffee
Fav Fruit : Strawberries
Fav Dessert : Anything Chocolate.
Hobbies : Crocheting, music, blogging
Some of the blogs that I know which put up picture(s) of me are : None

Okay, get ready people cos you're gonna be revealing your faces next :)

So now I need to find some people to tag... I will have to think on this one..I do want to spread the Love...

So far, these are the brave ones :)Gayla at Mom GadgetChar at Essential KeystrokesPaul at Reflections Rob at 2DolphinsZep at The In-Sect Ingo at StixsterStevie at Lost In Cyberspace The Paper Bull at (oddly enough) The Paper BullLisa Sabin-Wilson at Just A Girl In The WorldDawud Miracle at dmiracle.com Wendy Piersall at eMoms at HomeDennis Bjorn Petersen at Petersen Inc. Randa Clay at Randa Clay DesignDrew McLellan at The Marketing MinuteBecky McCray at Small Biz Survival Phil Gerbyshak at Make it Great!Steve Woodruff at StickyFigure Dave Olson at Live the GREAT life that you desireGreg at Become a Remote Control SEOAriane Benefit at Neat Living Blog Genesis at the At Home Mom BlogArmen at iFFECT.NET Mihaela Lica at Online Public RelationsTara at Graphic Design BlogDoris Chua at Home Office Women Edward Mills at Evolving TimesTony D. Clark at Success from the Nest Jonathan-C Phillips at SmartWealthyRichKaren at A Deaf Mom Shares Her WorldLisa Gates at intrinsic life design Rammel Firdaus at rammelfirdaus.comCarol at Pentimento Adam Kayce at Monk at WorkThomas at Technical BloggerTammy Lenski at I Can?t Say That! Chris Brown at Branding & Marketing Rory Sullivan at HamelifeDerek Wong at Going The Wong WayEmbuck at embuck.comMs. Q at QMusings Shelly Tucker at This Eclectic Life Steve at Ramblings from the MarginalizedTroy Worman at on!blogLilith at Lilith’s Owl NestRevov at REVO-OVER Karin at Stop/Start Jamy at Seay's Kopitam this is a miracle Anything Goes! Nonsense & Tears

The final step is if you do link back to me, then do send me a buzz and I'll be sure to include links back to you. Easy, ya? So, go ahead, post that picture already :)

Emotional Rollercoaster

My last week has been a mess and full of drama. But now I am back and stronger than ever. I can say that this has been the single most hardest thing I have ever been through. I had my son when I was 19, his father left within days of me telling him I was pregnant and that was NOTHING compared to this.

So now I have my shit together and I feel stronger and more empowered all I can say is "Bring It On".

I guess as a parent when someone makes such bold claims you feel the need to do your own research and that is what I have done. I must say that I have been left with a lot of unanswered questions.

I looked this supposed "psychiatrist" up and found that he is not certified through the AMA. His name is listed on the AMA site but as a self designated Child and Adolescent Psychiatrist. What the hell is that supposed to mean?? He is licensed in Connecticut through the Department of Health BUT as a family medical doctor and surgeon.

I have also requested to look at my son's chart considering that the report given was full of in accuracy's and was told that they would have to find out how that would be possible. I am STILL waiting for a call back from the program director. What is taking so long??? Makes me wonder if there is something to hide. They had no problems making such bold claims.

Which included:

Them: My Maternal Grandmother was an alcoholic.
Me: When asked about my family's health history, I said my paternal grandmother had Alzheimer's.

Them: My husband and I physically abuse each other.
My son: My Dad and Step mom physically abuse each other.

Them: My husband got drunk and destroyed the couch last month and my son came out of his room with a weapon.
Z and I: My husband got drunk and destroyed the couch more that 6 months ago and it woke "Z" up and he came into the living room. I sent "Z" back to his room. When I went in there to check on him, he was sitting there with a bowling pin.

Those are just a few of the twisted statements and allegations that were made.

I had a conversation with him on Monday and he seems to think that my son has Tourettes since his tic is still present.

I asked what gave him that idea and he said "Because he has a vocal and motor tic."

I said: "He has a motor tic? What tic is that?"

Doc: "Didn't you say that he blinked his eyes?"

Me: "Ummm...no, I said he cleared his throat and I was told what motor tics to look for, such as eye blinking."

Hello you stupid ass, isn't it your job to observe my child??? I have to do your job for you? Your the doctor here not ME!!

Saturday

Not to much interesting happening, besides all the other drama. Last night a bunch of us got together and we took the kids to see fireworks. It is always a really nice show and we always have fun. Otherwise this weekend has been ver uneventful.

She Comes This Morning

The call came from the DCF worker yesterday afternoon. We made an appointment for this morning at 8 am. She seemed really nice on the phone, just said she wanted to meet and clear this up. Although she couldn't tell me over the phone what the report said I am pretty sure that I know what it says.

Last week this psychiatrist said he was on the fence about whether he thought that this would benefit "Z". As of right now my husband (who acts like a child as well) has taken this as "Z" told on him. All he has said to "Z" is hi and bye, will not associate with him at all. I look at it as, you can't blame a child who was scared. "Z" is going to this place for help and if something at home bothers him, he is supposed to talk about it. Maybe my husband will realize that behaviors of his have consequences too.

I decided that after all this is cleared up that I will be sending "Z" to another program. This decision is not based on the fact that the psychiatrist sent a report to DCF but because this man was careless and did not take the time to read the file for accurate information before having a converstation with me . Granted it was a mistake but this is my child we are talking about and if you are not clear with your facts before you open your mouth then as far as I am concerned, you are not capable of taking care of my child.

The Single Worse Day Of My Life

happened yesterday....

Have you ever tried to do the right thing for your child and have it blow up in your face?

It happened to me yesterday. I had a meeting at the counseling place my son goes to and they informed me that they would be informing Children and Family Services about the one of the drunken episodes of my husbands. During the meeting the psychiatrist twisted shit up and wrongly accused my family of stuff.

He started the conversation by saying that "Z" had seen physical domestic violence in my house and he was going to have to report it to the Department of Family services.

“Whoa,” I said “Not my house, are you sure that you read that file correctly?”

He replied with a “Yes”

I said “Well you had better look again, that would have been between his father and his wife, not me and my husband!”

He looked and gave no apology and continued to be an ass.

”That is why I am clarifing it with you" he blurted " But you have been involved in physical abuse your whole life.”

“What are you talking about?” I asked

“Well, when you were a kid growing up.” He replied.

I said “I was freakin nine months old, my father beat me to a coma and the State took us away. My adoptive parents never laid a hand on me”

He perked up and said “You know, you may have amnesia from that.”

“What are you talking about?” I asked, might I add in a very disgusted tone.

After that things kind of blurred out. I never imagined that I would be treated like this. So I told him I couldn’t sit here and listen to this anymore. After 30 minutes of being talked to like that I had enough. It was like he was looking for something that wasn’t there.

Before I left, I said “You know this really concerns me.”

He looked confused and said “What do you mean?”

“What I mean is, you never took the time to read that file accurately. You looked over it, found some info and ran with it. If you had read it you would have known that Z said he saw his Dad hit his Step mom and that kind of stuff never happened in my house. How am I supposed to know you are not going to take things and twist them all up in the future? How do I know you won’t confuse my son with some other child? Feel free to report what ever you like, I can assure you that they will find nothing of that nature. If my husband ever hit me or "Z" it would be the last thing he ever did. I most certainly would not stick around for more!”

He had nothing to say after that. I called the supervisor of the program and let her know of my concerns. She was not much help either. All I got from her was a bunch of “uh-hu’s.”

I said understood their position but my concern was any future meetings with my son and whether information will be interpreted correctly. I also said I was not comfortable with my son being in his care and is there someone else he could see. She told me that he was the program psychiatrist and there was no one else. I said I would have to reevaluate my decision on keeping him there or transferring him to another facility. I also voiced my concern on the accuracy of the report. If he mixed things up in person, what did the report have on it? She really did not have much to say, but said she would look at it and call me back.

Well, I never heard from her. But there was a card in my door from the Department of Children and Families when I got home last night.

I Have So Much To Blog About

That I am really not sure where to start.

Let's see, there is the Micheal Vick ordeal, there is more about my son, what else??

Oh, I have a link to a picture of my son at the game the other day. Click here to see it. It will be up for the rest of the week and then I will remove the link.

There is the Senate sleep over party. Seeing as I don't know much about politics, I won't go there, I will keep my opinions to myself for now...(Bring the troops home!!!!!)

I will be back later for another post...till then....Happy Blogging :0)

"Z's" Big Night!

I am soooo tired today. I am at work in body, but not in mind.

Last night was a late one…On 6th cup of coffee.

On Friday when I brought “Z” to the orthodontist I entered his name in a raffle to be a guest Bat Boy at a RockCats game. Well, I never expected to get the call that he was one of 4 kids that were picked to do it. How exciting is that ?? Especially if you are a 12 year old boy. What a once in a lifetime chance!

(The RockCats are an AA affiliate of the Minnesota Twins. You can read the history of the franchise here. Some pretty big name came through that stadium.)

Anywho, “Z” handled himself pretty good, stuck it out through all 13, yes count them, 13 innings! We got home around midnight, washed up and went to bed….YEAH!!

He ended up with a couple of memorabilia items…He has a baseball and a broken bat. That broken bat will be his pride and joy for the rest of his life. So all in all, he had fun, got to do something that he may not of otherwise had the chance to do..

UUGH...Sunday

We started off with a fairly decent morning. My niece's 1st b-day party was early in the afternoon, I made a pasta salad. The weather was supposed to be beautiful and we were ready for a good time.

My husband wakes up and makes a call to his daughters mother and asked her if she could drop her off. Well, of course not. She can't help out with anything.

Then the drama began................................. Apparently my step-daughter told her mother that I made "Beer Slushies" for her and "Z" and that she didn't drink hers but "Z" drank his. My husband said that, that was a serious accusation, that his daughter was lying and he was 100% sure that it never happened. He told me of the accusation while on the phone with the mom and I said it wasn't true. The mother didn't believe him and continued to run her nasty mouth. I told my husband that it must of been when we made Root Beer Slushies with the Slurpee Machine. I was thoroughly disgusted by the whole thing. My husband left to go get his daughter and he was sure pissed off. He said he talked to her on the way back to the house and she did say that was what she told her mom!! This is what I call smack in the face #1..

He came back and I still was a little irritated. A 7 1/2 years old should really know the difference between Root Beer and Beer. I was so annoyed that it took all I had to go to this party and not to go off about it.

We get to the party and we had a lot of fun. There was about 30 people. family and close friends. The kids played in the pool and I help my sister-in-law out getting food out. It went pretty smooth for the most part.

This is smack in the face #2...

My step daughter came outside with a bouquet of flowers, looked at me, didn't say a word and kept on going. I never thought anything of it until I went in the house. I saw all of the ladies with a flower from the same bouquet my step daughter had. I commented on how pretty it was and one of the ladies said "Oh, didn't you get one? She was supposed to hand them out to all the ladies."

I said "Umm..nope."

She said she would tell her to give me one and I told her no, that it was fine. She insisted so I stood in the hall, waiting to use the bathroom. So as I am waiting I hear my one of my nieces calling my name and my step daughter telling her no. The bickered back and forth and finally my niece finds me gives it to me, I said thanks and then my Mother In Law stepped in. She said to my niece "You should let "D" give it to her"

My MIL takes it from me and gives it to her granddaughter and said "Ok honey, you give to Ann Marie." Well needless to say she just stood there with a blank look on her face. She didn't say a word just stood there twirling the flower in her hand with no intention of giving it to me.

My sister in law was disgusted and said to her "What is your problem, give it to her."

My mother in law said" It's ok, "D" you can give it to her."

I spoke up and said "Nope, that is ok. I don't want it and she had no intentions of giving it to me anyways.

My MIL looked confused and I said "My niece wanted to give it to me but my step daughter made it loud and clear that she had no intentions of giving it to me. I stood here and listened to them argue about it. Thanks anyways, but I don't want it."

My MIL said " No, take it, they were supposed to hand them out to the ladies."

I replied "NO...I don't want it. Let's drop the subject. You can't make kids do something they don't want to. If she does not want me to have it, by golly, I don't want it!"

Maybe I was childish... but kids know what they are doing. Just like on Mothers Day...My husband forced her to say Happy Mother's Day to me and I told him the same thing. "Don't make her do it, she knows it's Mother's Day, if she wanted to say it she would have." My husband tried to make up an excuse and I told him to leave it alone.

My Weekend

Was really quite nice...well for the most part! I took a few day off from blogging. but now am back!!

Friday, I worked a 1/2 a day, took "Z" to the doctor for a follow up on his accident. After that I took him to get a hot dog and then we headed off to the orthodontist.

Friday night was a little dramatic. My son went to his friend "A's" house and came home in tears. Apparently his friend said something that really hurt his feelings. My son rarely cries in front of other kids. He wouldn't tell me anything. We didn't really do to much other wise.

Saturday.."Z" was really down in the dumps. He didn't want to get out of bed. It really concerned me. I thought maybe his new medication was not agreeing with him. Saturday night he came out of his funk a little, we rented a movie "Ghost Rider", had Burger King for dinner and made Root Beer Floats. I feel asleep during the movie, "Z" said it was great..I still have it so maybe I will watch it tonight. Then it turned to Sunday..this is when the drama started.

Is There A Toilet Paper Shortage

that I didn't hear about???

Ok..I wasn't going to do this but.. An Automated Toilet Paper Dispenser?

1st of all...5 sheets??? I am not one of those that winds the toilet paper around my hand till 1/4th of the roll is gone but geez...5 sheets, that's it?!?! I know it can be adjusted but it should be set to a default setting of at least 8 to 10 sheets, that is for a frontal wipe.

I have a few questions for Kimberly-Clark...

What about the people who need to wipe their ass and have taken a messy one. You all know the kind I am talking about, it has happened to all of us. The kind where you feel like you are going to be wiping forever! Do you hold your hand under the sensor to get more T.P or will you have to keep jerking your hand underneath the sensor?

What if the public restroom has cheap one-ply tissue? I might add that most do. Again, you know the kind I am talking about..the kind your finger pokes through. Of course you need more T.P

What about me..the person who DOES NOT want to sit on the seat because I think I might catch something. So I need to cover the seat and hover at the same time. I know what your answer is...the paper toilet seat covers. What if there are none or they are all out? I still need t be able to cover the seat with something.

My Phone

My phone at work will not stop ringing. 97% of the call are from "Z". His friend is moving this weekend and needs to help clean the house. So he had to go home for a little while. Well, now he is bored and doesn't know what to do. Hmmm..I can come up with a whole list of things to do...

1. Clean your room

2. Do your dishes from lunch

3. Dust

4. Your laundry

5. Read a book

6. Maybe, vacuum for me

7. Write a story

8. Go to the pool, spent big bucks on a pool pass for the summer

and the list could go on. Somedays I just want to SCREAM

"Z's" Accident

"Z" went to a friends house after dinner Monday night. Which is nothing new, sometimes it's like I am a drive threw restaurant. He eats, cleans up, and leaves. The only difference is that I am free.

So I get a call about 8 p.m from him and the first thing out of his mouth was " Some lady just hit "A" and I with her car and drove away!"

Whoa, wait a minute, I think.

"Are you ok?" I asked

"Yes, but my arm hurts a little bit." he replied

So I walked down to the friends house and by then "A's" mom had called the police an reported a hit and run. With in a few minutes the fire department and E.M.S showed up. They checked out the boys and for the most part they were ok. Just a little shook up.

I had "Z" go to the emergency room anyways, I know from experience that you can never be to sure. "Z" was saying he was ok, but he kept holding his arm up against his chest and not moving it. E.M.S determined it was not broken, but I felt he needed to be seen.

So we got to the hospital and my husband (after having a few drinks and now annoyed) meets us there, they checked him out and did an x-ray. No broken arm, just bruised. The police showed up and ask "Z' what was going on. He told them that a lady hit him and took off. They told us that she did take off, but called when she got home to report it. (This will require another post.)

To sum it all up, most importantly "Z" is ok, my husband is a royal asshole and some lady hit my kid and drove away. Two rants are on the way!

2007 All-Star Home Run Derby

Last night was the 2007 Home Run Derby, and I missed it. "Z" had an accident which kept us in the E.R for a few hours.

So as I am watching to the introductions, I hear this vaguely familiar voice, my husband starts to laugh and he says "You know who that is, right honey?"

I said "Sounds vaguely familiar."

Next thing I know, they show him, Chris "Booomer" Berman ...(painful memories return)

To my amazement this man was lookin like a slob. His jacket sleeves were approximately 6 inches to small and his pants were wrinkled. Now this man has money, for goodness sake, he lives in Greenwich, Ct. You'd figure that he would be a little better dressed than that. Who ever is buyin his clothes needs to be fired and if he does it himself, well I guess he needs to make a trip to Men's Wearhouse and get measured properly.

So anyway, my husband and I, once again, had a few good laughs and all I can say is, I wish I could have watched it, cause I would of had more to say.

Thinks to self "I wonder if anyone shook his hand?"

7-Toed Kitten Born To a 7-Toed Cat

and you'll never guess when..7/7/07!!! I tried to find a story but no such luck..no pun intended. But you can click here to see a slide show.

Come on People, Get A Job!!

How many times do I have to tell that person who is begging for money or cigarettes “NO” I mean come on now.

Last week I blogged about a guy with a gas can (man #1). Since then I was asked by another man (man #2), who I might add looked pretty clean and together, a lady on 4th of July asking for a cigarette (lady #1) and man #2 again this morning (I never forget a face, maybe a name, never a face!!)

This is how it is going to go down the next time someone asks me for something

Lazy person “Excuse me Ma’am, excuse me, would you happen to have spare change or maybe and extra cigarette?”

Me “ Ummm, extra change? Let’s see..NO..I spend $45.00 a day to send my son to private counseling, $ 2.50 a day for ice coffee and $5.25 a day on cigerettes. All that on a salary of around $120.00 a day. You tell me where I have extra money to give to you!
As for the extra cigarette, you give me 50 cents of the money you just received from begging and I will consider it. Heck, I get 20 in a pack just like everyone else, further more the last time I checked it wasn’t buy 20 get one free!!!"

Done!!

Getting Personal With Me

I was tagged by Mariuca on random things about myself. Nothing too exciting that is fur sure..

Thanks Mariuca!!

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No.
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Thursday
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Yup
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Cajun Turkey
DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yes, one
IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yes, although I wonder why!
DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? I try not to, usually get me into trouble.
DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Nope
WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Yup
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Count Chocula
DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? No
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Yes
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Black Raspberry Chocolate Chip
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Everything! I am very observant and a people watcher. Helps me decide whether or not a person is worth my time.
RED OR PINK? Red
WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I’m always prepared for the worst.
WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My mom, she lives 4 1/2 hours away
WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? No shoes, no pants & no I'm not naked
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? French toast and bacon
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The tv.
IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Royal Blue
FAVORITE SMELLS? Fresh cut grass, a match after you blow it out and like Mariuca, I love the chemical smell too. Mine is gasoline
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My Mom

FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Baseball
HAIR COLOR[S]? Red with blond chunky highlights and yes, the red is natural.
EYE COLOR? Blue
DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Yes
FAVORITE FOOD? Used to be seafood, now, I don't know
SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? I LOVE scary movies. If it is dark I have to watch them with somebody though!
LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? American Pie, on tv right now
WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Grey
SUMMER OR WINTER? Niether, if I HAD to choose, Summer
HUGS OR KISSES? Kisses as long as they are not super wet like a dog just laid one on you. Nothing worse than excess saliva.
FAVORITE DESSERT? Cannoli's
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Not reading a book.
WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? I don't have one
WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? I don't remember.

FAVORITE SOUND[S]? Laughter, as long it is not the obnoxious type.
ROLLING STONES OR THE BEATLES? This is a tough one
WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Western Carribean
DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Hey now!! LOL...ummm, I'll have to get back to you!
WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Massachusetts, U.S.A
WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Angie Lee & Laurie Anne

What Holidays Do You Celebrate?

No to long ago (LOL..4th of July was just this week) I mentioned in a post that I hoped everyone had a happy and safe 4th of July. I received a comment that got me thinking.

Ross Hetherington commented on that post after I Left one about his cute chickens. He said “4th July means nothing really to me. Living in the UK but I hope you had a good day.” Thanks Ross, I most certainly did!!

So now I am curious, What holidays do you celebrate in your country that we don’t here in the United States? Tell me about a little about them and what they mean to you. If you live in the United States that is ok too. We have many different cultures here and each one has it's own unique celebrations.

"Z's" First Day

As I mentioned in my other post ,Friday was Z's first day at counseling. He got up at 7 a.m with no problems, had breakfast and helped me make his lunch. He goes from 9-1 and with the way he eats I had to make sure he was not going to be hungry or he will completely shut down. We did all this with absolutely no complaining! I was sure he was going to be against going there and I thought he was going to let me know that. I must say, I was very proud of him.

They told me that he would be able to get transportation there, so I waited with him until the van got there. More so because I wanted to meet the driver. Well, the van showed up kinda late, actually 8:50 am. 10 minutes before he needed to be there. I was just getting ready to bring him myself when I saw the van down the street. I talked to the driver for a couple of minutes and then they were off!

All morning all I could think about was, what was "Z" thinking of all this. How was he dealing with it all. About 1:30 pm he called me from home and sounded to be in really great spirits. I asked how his day went, he said "Good, we made collages and played Scattagories and he also met with a psychiatrist", who tossed a football around with him while they talked in his office.

I must say that there was something different in his voice. It was like a little boys voice. A very sweet, tender voice with a little bit of innocence. Almost like relief, relief that maybe there is someone who can help him sort through all the problems he has. I just hope the positive attitude keeps up. I know there will be good and bad days, I just hope more good than bad.

Last night he came home and was getting ready to take his meds and go to bed. He was counting juice boxes if the fridge and he says " Well, this is the last one for the weekend. I need to save the rest for school, I mean group." I think I saw a little sparkle in his eye. I will buy more of course........

Are You Schmoozin?

Most of all..Thanks Adrian. He has honored me with the Schmooze award. Thanks so much!!

As it goes, schmoozing is the natural ability “to converse casually, especially in order to gain an advantage or make a social connection.” Good schmoozers effortlessly weave their way in and out of the blogosphere, leaving friendly trails and smiles, happily making new friends along the way. They don’t limit their visits to only the rich and successful, but spend some time to say hello to new blogs as well. They are the ones who engage others in meaningful conversations, refusing to let it end at a mere hello - all the while fostering a sense of closeness and friendship. So how in the world I got this award I will never know LOL but I've thought of five great people who have made me welcome and schmoozed their way into my blog and life that I'd like to give this most prestigious Power of Schmooze Award!

So please clap your hands for these 5 new Schmooze Award recipients, that is if they choose to accept the award of course!

Since the morning coffee has not done it's job yet, I will keep this short and sweet. Each one of these blogs has given me a either good laugh or a thought to ponder. Good job all..Keep up the Schmoozin

Ann

Laurie Anne

Mad Goat Lady

Jean Chia

Mrsnesbitt

Honoring Heroes

WOW..I just read a post that gave me goose bumps all over my body. It was posted by Ryan Evans at A [sometimes] Logical View of the Illogical

The post is about a Navy SEAL who died on a mountain side fighting for his fellow SEAL teammates and a statue that was erected in his honor. Please check out this post as I could not do it justice trying to do a recap - To hell with political correctness - It's time to honor a fallen hero

As I read it I had goose bumps and still do. I have to agree with the fact that there are alot of "wussy" parents. Too much in this world is sugar coated and children should know, they should know who fought for them. This man gave his life for so many others and there is nothing that could be more of an honor than a statue. The statue tells a story, a story so many of us will never know, gun included. To me the gun is significant. That is how I look at it, he didn't fight sitting or standing there doing absolutely nothing. He died fighting, fighting with his gun. He is a Hero!

IMHO, there should be more statues like this and certainly more recognition than what many of these soldiers get. Maybe some day I will get to Littleton, Colorado and my son can “meet” one of the 1000’s of men and woman who fought for him.

I have never been in the Armed Forces. I did date a man for several years who served in Desert Storm. I have to agree that most do not know what happens. I do not even know the full extent of what happened. All I know is, he came home a different person then when he left. I still talk to him, even 13 years after our relationship has ended and I still to this day have no idea what it was like.

We should all give thanks to Danny Dietz and all the other service men and women who are fighting for our future and freedom. Thanks to those who fought for us in the past as well. If it was not for these brave men and women, what kind of freedom would we have today.

God Bless the Dietz family..Your son was a brave man...

What Will Your Kids Be When They Grow Up?

I have often wondered that about "Z". I actually worry about what and where he will be. What I mean by that is, the ADHD and auditory hallucination are both managable with medication. What about the rest of it? The oppositional defiance disorder, the lying and he has done some stealing. There are some days I just want to scream. But worst of all I am afraid for his future.

Yesterday we went to an out patient treatment center for intake into a intensive counseling program. He will start going 5 days a week 3 to 4 hours a day. If his clinician feels he he working with the program, it will be cut back to 3 days a week. He starts today! I have to say he was very open minded about going, he was not resistant to being there and even gave a list of things that he would like to work on. I thing being positive is the first step to being successful.

Family history is very limited, as both his father and I are adopted. I have a brother who is my biological brother. He had severe issues growing up. So bad infact he was taken out of the home when I was 11 and never came back. My parents tried really hard to help him achieve his goal of returning home, he just never had the drive for himself.

My biological father had issues of his own. Much that I don't know about and maybe don't want to. They say hi are from the cored being around his neck during child birth blocking oxygen to his brain. I am not so sure of that, seeing as my brother and even my own son seem to have the same issues as him.

I spoke with "Z's" grandfather last night about "Z's" dad. I have not spoken with him in over 3 years. Papa said that his father had ADHD and ODD. Now this is were the fear comes in.

As an adult my brother has pretty much got himself together. He has a good job and 3 kids. He was married but his wife had her own demons that took over her life. He has all 3 of the kids, goes to work and is a productive member of society.

"Z's" dad is far from that. He has been in jail for domestic violence, drinking and driving and least of the issues, non payment of child support. He abuses his wife, he can't hold a job, has attempted suicide and just an over all bundle of issues. I am just happy most of that started after we were done.

So the long and short of it, I just want my son to be the best he can be and I will do what it takes to help him achieve his highest potential.

Yeah For Me and For You Too!!

Just want to send a special thanks to Alalee over at What Floats My Boat she nominated me for the Rockin Girl Blogger!! Go check out her blog....that is if you can handle things straight forward and to the point.

Now I must pick 5 other deserving bloggers..

My first pick is Nick Philips @ Anything Goes! This is a great blog about him and his happens, Always has something fun going on over there. Nick take your bows because you are an Awesome Guy Blogger!!

EddieJohn66 @ First Time Dad, you are an Awesome Guy Blogger as well..this blogger shares with us his first time Dad experiences. With an obvious love for his beautiful daughter, I always enjoy reading what the family is up to.




And the Ladies............

I would like to present this award to Laurie Anne @ All Over The Bored. I love to read her views and always has something great to read..

Krystin Marie @ Ya Don't Say She has a wonderful blog but I am giving her this award because, well, I am sure that she is not the only blogger at Wordpress that uses the change-a-theme look, but I will tell ya..IT ROCKS!!






Last but not least..

I give the last award to Jim AND Emma at Go Smell The Flowers! The cover all subjects and always have something fun & interesting going.

Hope Everyone Had A Happy 4th of July

and a safe one too! We started the party at 9 pm Tuesday night and it ended last night about 10 pm. Now it is time to go back to work! Really stinks having a holiday in the middle of the week.

So I am really finished with grilled food. I saw more of it in a 24 hour period of time then I care to remember. I am going to have nightmares about it for some time to come! Dancing hot dogs and spinning hamburgers, that it what I see! Uggg...No more for me..How that will be possible, I don't know, there is still 1/2 the summer to go!

Criss Angel Divorce Drama

See Cameron that is why they say "Do not get involved with a man even when they are getting divorced!!" Starts all kinda drama...



So Criss's wife said she didn't see one cent of his millions. I know that it is considered marital property but does she really deserve the millions? Yes, as far as I am concerned, IF and only IF she sacrificed for him. What I mean by that is, if she supported them while he was making it big. If she worked while he made no money, if she invested money into him. I personally don't think money is everything and it certainly does not make a marriage.



I read somewhere that Criss kept his wife a secret. That they plan was to gain "sex appeal." I guess they figured that women would not like him as much if they new he was married?!? That is a first, if a man has sex appeal, then he has it, married or not. Go figure!! Sounds like a ploy for more money..who knows. As I posted yesterday, I didn't know she existed! Maybe she didn't give him what he really needed...LOL..

Z & Medication

Been pretty much drama much free with “Z” lately. Mostly because school is out!!! He has been hanging out with his friend “A” most of the time. He goes to the pool in the afternoon with his other friend “JB” .

So he started a new medication this week, the psychiatrist prescribed him Strattera . I have had the prescription for awhile and was nervous about him taking it. The dose is very low to start, only 25 mg. He told me that most kids “Z’s” weight start at 60 mg but seeing as we both agree that “Z” should be able to function as normal as possible we are starting low and will increase when needed. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I personally do not want a vegetable for a child. I just want him to be able to function like a normal person, just be able to slow down a little bit. So we’ll see. Today is only the second day of him taking it.

Criss Angel (A&E)

If you have cable, then you know who Criss Angel is!! Well, I just read a story that Criss Angel is married, well not for long!! I would never of guessed in a million years that he was married. I have never even so much as heard him mention his wife. I suppose that there are alot of stars who do that.

Apparently he is getting a divorce and he abandoned his wife when he started to become famous..Geez Criss, I sure hope that is not true!

The wife's lawyers are naming Cameron Diaz as his lover..True or not who knows, supposedly there was a filing for divorce some time ago. Sound like maybe the soon-to-be es Mrs. Criss Angel will be getting a little dirty..She said" I am going to rip his heart out"..hmm...sound like a bitter individual to me