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Still not working...hopefully tomorrow I will find out about the 2 job interviews I went on this week!
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Tough Times Out There

So it has been tough trying to find a job. Who would have thought it would be this hard but I will keep at it.

Things have been quiet otherwise on the home front. Zach is doing okay in school, his grades are fine but his attitude sucks! My husband is still working and no signs of lay offs at his job, (knocking on wood) so that is a plus. We have been lucky thus far, no car issues or computer issues. I do wait for the day my computer craps out! It is a few years old and you never really quite know what will happen. Unfortunately I depend on my computer for way to much! As long as I have plenty of computer memory all will be good!

With that said, I am off to iron some clothes for my hubs...

To Return To Work or Not

I haven't yet decided what I want to do yet. I would love to be my own boss and have a business. I know the economy is really poor right now and that is what keeps me on the fence. I have this new passion and it is making diaper cakes and baby shower gifts. I would love to be able to do this on a full time basis. But can we afford for me to do it?? There is alot that needs to be done, licences to obtain and of course a website. Right now I have been listing on EBAY but because of the economy I haven't sold them for very much, I want to be fair to people, but I want to make some money too. I also just found Etsy.com...they have much lower fess than EBAY, which is awesome. They are more for people like me who make crafts and who offer supplies. I have opened and Etsy store as well. I hope to one day stop using EBAY as my main source of sales.

If you want to check out my store, click the link on the right called Diamondssaphire's Diaper and Baby Shower Creations. Check back often too, I just started yesterday and have a few things up and will be adding more..

Gone in a Flash!

Income tax check came in handy this year. I wanted to save some of it, but my husband wanted to get stuff with it. We needed a new bed, no doubt about that and we did get one. It is nice, I haven't slept so well in such a long time. We also got a new tv, we didn't need that but my husband really wanted it and for once in my life, I gave in. We are now the owners of a 42" Plasma HD tv..ugh. I could care less about the tv. Yeah it is bigger and nicer to watch, but I am not into materialistic things, so it really doesn't phase me. We did not get the plasma mount, we almost ran out of extra money and my SUV needed new tires. We got those too..I had withdraw some money from the savings account, but you gotta do what you have to. So all in all we got what we needed and something we did not need. Next year, I get a laptop! (that was my compromise!!)

Life is Okay

So not much is changing on the job search. This week I am off to unemployment for a class on WIA funds. The said "Be on time, if you are late you will not be allowed in." Well, there are no issues with my ability to be on time..I can't stand being late.

Today I am supposed to go shopping with a friend. She is getting married and wants to pick up a few things..UGH. I really hate shopping. One of the things she wants is a corset so I told her to check out Shirley corset. Seeing it is an online store, she wasn't to thrilled about that. I was just trying to get out of going shopping. I mean, not like I have extra money to spend!! But I am going to go, I said I would and it will be nice to hang out with her since we don't get to do it that often..

I Am Fuming..

Ok, so as many people know I have been laid off from my job. This morning I was on the Capitol Workforce Partners website. On this site I notice that they have a Summer Youth and Learning Program. Peeked my interest, Zac really wants a job and this looks like something that he could do over the summer, get some training..right.

They have requirements

• must be 14..check
• must have a birth certificate...check
• must have social security card...check
• must have citizenship...ie..birth certificate....check
• any special circumstances...nope
• do you receive free lunch at school...nope
• are you on welfare...nope

What was I told?...If you do not receive welfare, food stamps or free lunch then you might not want to show up to apply.

What kind of crap is that?? Because I don't suck the State of Connecticut dry my child does not have the opportunity to learn or get a summer job. That is crappy as far as I am concerned. Why does a child that lives in a home with one working parent and a parent on unemployment not get the same services as a child who's parent is milking the system for money or sitting on their asses selling drugs and shooting each other. Making a menace out of themselves, bringing down communities and cities. I have a child who wants to work and who wants to become something, yet my less than middle class income prohibits that!! How is that fair? Honestly, it makes me nauseous..I wonder what the statistics are, how many kids who were eligible for this service, thanks to their parents, have actually taken the skills they have learned and become something as adults.

Out Of Whack

I feel very disoriented and out of whack this morning..why? Because I over slept, in a normal family it wouldn't really matter very much, but my family is far from normal. Nobody in my house can function or get themselves up with out me! Go figure..it is like living in a box, maybe a little bigger..one of those moving pods and no body can step out side of it. It is the same routine everyday, never changes, reminds me of the movie Ground Hog Day. I need to be up to get everyone else up! Ugh, why did I baby them soo much? With me not working, now it is even worse! Now I am going to go and have my coffee, better late than never!

Boredom

So last night I was sitting at home with nothing to do except think about what I was going to get for my friend who is having a baby. Then I had a thought, maybe I will make her a diaper cake. So I went to the store grabbed a package of diapers and got to work. I made the diaper cake and then I made a diaper chair..yes a chair. I think it is cute..Not quite like a Berkline chair but good enough for a doll, bear or what ever.

Chair

Cake (still needs decoration)

Who new I had such talent!!

My husband will be shocked when he gets home. I think he will like them and I know my friend will. Who wouldn't love to get something so cute??

What Would You Do??

Last night my son and I went to pick up dinner and while waiting in line he decides to share something with me. Honestly I was surprised, he is usually very secretive.

He was with his sister (she is not mine) and they into a convenience store near her house. Upon walking in he saw money on the floor and realized it was $30.00. He picked up the money and proceeded to take it to the cashier, even against his sisters urging. He told the cashier "You know there was $30.00 on the floor?" and handed it to him. Upon leaving the store his sister asked why he gave it to the man and he replied "Because it was the right thing to do."

Holy crap, who came down and smacked him in the head??? I was shocked! If you have followed this blog, you would know my son has had a host of issues. ADHD, Tics and so on. And alot times he has not made the right choices and has even stolen a couple of times. Maybe new brains cells are appearing at 14 years old?? J/K

I told Zac that he was absolutely correct, it was the right thing to do and that I was very proud of him because I am sure that it was very hard to give the cashier the money. Secretly, I wanted to cry. I know I shouldn't feel that way, he is 14 but when you feel hopeless about your child sometimes and then he does something like this, you feel proud. Makes me feel like he does value what I teach him and it gives me a glimmer of hope that he will turn out to be the man I want him to be.

So after dinner me and the hubs were sitting outside and I told him what Zac had told me in the restaurant. He was stunned, he looked at me and said " Wow, how hard must that have been? Just for doing that he deserves the $30.00." I agreed, good deads don't go unrewarded in our house, so we did, we gave him $30.00 for probably making one of the hardest choices he has ever had to make.

I couldn't feel more proud of him right now........

What would you have done??

Come On Summer

I am so ready for some warm weather, so ready to be outside! I currently looking at a few MP3 players, I have one but really would like a new one for the summer. I have been walking a lot lately, trying to keep up the weight loss. Although it is always a struggle.

Things have been fairly quiet lately, no real drama to report! That is always a good thing. I don't like drama! My son is doing well in school, although he did have one F the rest of his grades were B's. He has been doing alot of extra work to try to bring up that grade, he really has no one but himself to blame..Well, I guess that is it for now, so I am off to make a Diaper Cake for a friend who is expecting a baby this month.

Tired..

I am soo tired. I am in bed the recommended amount of hours, I just think it is time to replace the mattress. Ugh..not the right time to have to do that, but I guess it will have to happen once we get our tax refund. I told my husband that I did not want to get a cheap mattress, there is no sense in doing that. I really want a sleep number bed! My parents have one and they said it is the best bed they have ever owned and they would never go back to a conventional mattress again. I wonder if I could talk the hubby into one of those! Most likely not, I imagine that with our financial state it would not be wise to spend it all on material items! There is so much more we can do with the money..we'll see. For now I will keep all options open I guess.

Pills, Pills and more Pills

I just cleaned out my hall closet and found a ton of crap that still had not been unpacked from when we moved in back in July..I know pretty scary! The good thing is, well, it is now all unpacked! I found pain medication, cough syrup, a weight loss pill, diarrhea medication, Band Aids and so on. Some went in the trash and other stuff on the shelf.

Quite honestly though, I was hoping to move to a bigger place because moving in here was a huge mistake BUT since I lost my job and have had absolutely no luck finding another one, I mine as well just get comfy..ugh. Who knows, maybe I will get lucky and find a minimum wage job working at a fast food joint!

Television

I guess I could say my tv watching has increased a bit since I have lost my job. I know spring is around the corner and honestly, it couldn't get here any faster. I am sick o winter, sick of being trapped in the house and I guess just sick of being sick and tired. Same crap on tv all the time, same shows, same stupid commercials about high risk auto insurance companies, keeping comment to myself. I can't wait to get outside and enjoy the weather. This has been a loong winter with a lot of snow and not so great times. What I really need is a job and a hobby to keep me busy until I find a job. A hobby..that is tough! I am one of those, start everything and finish nothing types! Just like this...I always come back to blogging but, I never seem to stick with it. There is no commitment..I wonder why?

Hitting Home

So my husband informs me last night that lay off have begun at his job as well. When he told me that, I felt as though I was going to vomit..What the hell, I guess I need to start looking really hard for a job. Unfortunately all I have ever worked in was manufacturing, so that doesn't help me very much. Maybe I can take my great people skills and go be a waitress somewhere!

I dunno, sometimes I wonder though about life. What has happened the last few years to make living so crappy. I hate the state I live in, I should have moved when I had the chance. Where would I have gone? Not really sure, maybe the Outer Banks. Now it is to late, I got married and my husband has a daughter so he wouldn't go along with moving. I am not really sure why because she doesn't come over anymore anyways. Not quite sure why, but she hasn't been here in like 2 months. We aren't good enough for her to come visit on the weekends but we are good enough at holidays and her birthday which is 10 days away. Oh well...

"He Is Just Like You"

Last night we are getting ready for bed and I see that mt son's light is still on. I knock on the door, you never know what going on in there. (If you get my drift!) No answer, so I open the door and Zach is sleeping. Light on, tv on, basically the whole nine yards including his digital frame . So I shut everything off and go back into our room and my husband says "Ugh, he is just like you, why can't he just do what he is told."

My first thoughtl, what was he told? This is the first time that I know of that he has fallen asleep with the lights on and the tv is on a time, he just fell asleep early.

Second of all, just like me..The only question I asked was "Why did you marry me then? You come off as if my son is an annoyance, so why did you marry me" If my husband has the nerve to compare me to my son and I know how he feels about my son sometimes, why did he marry me?

All he said was "What are you talking about?" I left the room and went downstairs.

My life sucks.......................................................

Snow and more snow

I woke up this morning to a ton of snow! My goodness where is Spring?? Ugh, how I hate to shovel..Thank goodness the landlords groundskeepers showed up when they did, cause the snow is heavy! I was prepared though as usual, most of the time I beat them to it, not today though. That makes me happy. So I stripped off all of my safety equipment and now I am down here on the computer. After this post I will be job searching, I am so sick of being home. I need to get out of this house and even if it is part time work, I don't care. Staying home is defiantly taking a toll on me, my family of course loves it and why shouldn't they? Everything is done for them! Well, not everything but a lot. Well, I guess I am going to go for now.

Shopping

So today we are going shopping..Yeah. We have needed new living room furniture for quite sometime now. I have held off getting it because my family does not know how to just sit on it. They feel the need to fall on it..that included my husband! Drive me crazy, I guess I don't want to buy anything new for it to get ruined in a month or two. But now that I stay home, it is time for new furniture. So, hubby and I are off to the local discount furniture store in hopes to find something we can agree on. This should be real interesting cause he can be a real cheap ass at times and it drives me out of my mind! I mean, I am consciousnesses of what I spend but I certainly won't by poor qulity cause it costs less..Like they say, you get what you pay for!

Sucky

Ugh..I really don't know what to say, bitch..whatever. I never thought getting laid off would be so crappy!! But it is, man how your life and spending habits change. No more wasting money on trying to find the best acne treatment for my son. Dammit kid, just wash your freakin face twice a day!

Yup..that is how I feel about life right now...sucked dry and ready to go back to work. As much as I love being home with my son in the afternoon, I would love to be at work too!! Even if it is part time, as long as I can get out of the this damn house.

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

Fresh

This is my first post since my unlucky day..or maybe it is luck. I was truly upset and as one of my readers stated, "I far from like my job" but, I did like some of the people and I still needed a job, as we do we all. I needed the insurance, the dental, the 401k.... all of it. I have no hard feelings.

16 people were laid off, including he Director of Quality. He was my direct boss and we had a love hat relationship. I am not sure what the others plan to do. Me, well I am going to work on my family, my son in particular. He has been 1/2 on his own since he was 10. Staying home after school buy himself. Always doing a good job but now I feel I need to make up for that. I am going to go to school if at all possible. I really want to learn something new mostly because I need a fresh start. I think being laid off gives my that fresh start. It feels like a release from the manufacturing world. I have been in manufacturing since I was 18 years old, that is about 15 years. I have been successful, I think it was because I never settled, I wanted to learn more and do more. I could sit in the meetings with the college educated Engineers and keep pace.

So with this new chapter in my life starting, I wake up this morning feeling good, recharged and ready to take on the world. I am going to spend lots of time reading about the "best diet pill", trying to get this knee better and quitting smoking.

The Dark Cloud Has Come

I am officially unemployed.

So It Is Sunday

I really don't have much to say. I guess today will be an EBAY day, ship things that need to go, list things that need to be listed. Zach went to his fathers Friday night and I need to pick him up today too..My mom always laughs when he goes there...she calls it "visiting the girls". The girls are his 3 sisters, two 1/2 sister and a step sister. He could care less about his dad and he goes to hang out with his sisters..
At Christmas when he saw his dad at his grandparents... looked at him in the face , scratched his head and said
"HMMM, who is that tall, mysterious and strange man?"
His father looked at me and said "I don't get it, what's that mean?"
A little stunned I asked "When was the last time you saw him?"
He replied"Geezz, I dunno sometime over the summer."
Dad then says jokingly "Your lucky you mom is here"
Zach says looks up at him" You don't scare me, you might be tall but you don't scare me."

I truly believe that Zach will one day kick his dad's ass.

Allergies?

I wonder if I am having a winter allergy attack. I can't say that all this sneezing is attributed to a cold. Or maybe, I am allergic to work? Hmmm, well not work, but my place of business. We make porous metal parts and the metal we use is like powder, some finer than others but none the less there is dust in sense. Who knows? Whatever it is, I can't wait until it is gone!

One more day till the weekend is here. Not sure what I am going to do this weekend, maybe my usual laundry, cleaning, Weight Watcher's, EBAY or maybe a movie and a box of Ju Ju Be . Oh and my sons birthday is coming up and there is also a party to plan, seems like just yesterday he was born. I amazes me how fast time has gone by. 14 next month..geeezz

Child Support

I wonder how many people just shuttered at that word. Those who pay it, those who are supposed to get it and don't, those who hate the idea that their spouse has to pay it...I am sure there are all kinds.


Seems as though the idea of me writing out a child support check for my step daughter isn’t something I should have to do. I am not quite sure why.

My opinion, I don’t think it matters who writes the check as long as it gets done. My husband did it before me and will do it after me, but right now I do it and so my checkbook will balance every time.

What are your thoughts about that?


Just so people know (you know who you are and I am no quite sure what the point of telling your husband to post a comment at my blog was about but it is a free country)...my son is owed $1000's in support and his step mother could give a shit less. When he was a baby he ran out of diapers at their house, diapers that I left there, paid for with my own money and no I wasn't getting child support. His dad went to buy them and she was mad and said I owed her money for them...that is the kind of women she is! But that is not me..

Now that I am agitated it is time to take my sick ass home, take some medicine and prepare for another day at work..But who knows, maybe I will be back later..Till then have a great night..

What A Hot Mess

Oh my goodness..I am sick and sore!

I am or was, supposed to go pick out a new faucet for my landlord to install. I was thinking of Grohe faucets but I don't think I will be going, not today atleast. It started with a cold and then I messed up my right knee shoveling snow. It is not bad, but it sure is uncomfortable and to top it all off, after not having to sit in front of computer all day for 12 days and all that changing due to going back to work, my left shoulder is sore and stiff. I'll tell ya, I am a mess.

We are also getting mother nature's sleet and freezing rain at this moment. So that also hinders the idea of wanting to drive. I hate nasty weather and I hate driving in it even more. There are tons of inconsiderate people on the road who have little or no reguard for others. For me this is the perfect day to veg out at home, but I need a job and certainly don't want to be first on the lay off list, so I must go.

Back To Work....YEAH?!?!

I am back to work today...my company shut down and laid everyone off from 12/24 to 1/5. Am I happy to go back? I sure am! staying home was very difficult for me and even though I am not liking my job, I would rather be there then home all the time.

My husband and I went through a little rough patch last week and it almost caused me to pack up my and my son's luggage! He can be very immature some...well alot of the times. He was mad at me because I didn't have to go to work and he did. Hey dumb ass, I didn't ask to be laid off now did I?? So what does he do last week..works Monday, Tuesday and 1/2 of Wednesday. Has Thursday off and even though he could have gone to work Friday, he chose not to. Now the problem here is that he pays child support for his daughter. We have bills that need to be paid and child support comes right off the top, where does that leave the bills??? That just shows me how selfish he can be...so it will now be a month of struggling to rebound. Oh well, I guess it is not always fun and games..

Commercials

You know there are certainly a lot of lawyers these days who are advertising on television. Most of them are wanting to help people sue others for all sorts of things. The most recent one I have seen is for people who have mesothelioma, which is a form of cancer cause by exposure to asbestos. Don't get me wrong, I feel for those who have cancer, I could be there someday too if I don't quit smoking. But to sue..I mean what is this world coming to. If you didn't know you would be exposed to asbestos, well then that is one thing, but if you knew what you were getting yourself into and knew the risks that is completely different. But when there are money grubbing lawyers out there I guess you can sue for just about anything...hmmm. I wonder what I could sure for!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!