Stop and Shop Was Looking For Panelists

Today I joined a supermarket research panel for the grocery store Stop and Shop. On their website were looking for customers to be a voice for supermarket research . They send you surveys and ask what types of things could be changed for the better. It is amazing to me the extent some companies will go to for the consumer opinions. I personally like doing these types of things, makes me feel like my opinion really counts. Who knows if it will really make a difference, but there is no harm in participating.

School Starts Tuesday

The countdown begins and as of this weekend summer is officially over!! Z goes back to school on Tuesday and so far he seems very positive. None of the "I don't want to go to school" or "I hate school" comments. Very, very positive this year and I couldn't be more thrilled.

We did school shopping last night and today. Z and I went to 3 different stores for clothes. I wanted to get as much as I could for the money I had. I love the the clearance racks. All the summer stuff is on sale and really he needs just t-shirts and sweatshirts for the fall. Then when winter hits we will go buy the long sleeved shirts. We made out like a bandit and are pretty much all set. I still need to get the usual under garments and a backpack, otherwise we are ready to rock!

An Eye Opener Into My Life

I chose to do a "sort of" review on a chapter of a book I read on the internet. Seeing as I am a woman and I have some very wonderful readers who are woman, I thought this would be a great post to do. For you men who read my blog, if you have a woman in your life you’d like to share this with, by all means please do so.

The chapter I read was 5 Promises: Make These Promises to Unleash the 10 Forces Within You out of the book, Inside Every Woman, written by Vickie Milazzo RN, MSN, JD . From the title you can tell the book is a book for women.
Now I have not read many self help books, actually I have never read a self help book, mostly because I have never taken the time to go to the book store and pick one up. This just happened to fall into my lap. I just want to add that I normally would now do a review of a book and that this is actually how I feel the chapter pertains to me personally, the insights it has given me on my life

Before I started to read this chapter, I thought, “Geez, this is a bunch fooey”. I figured that I would give it a chance since it a book for women, most importantly, written by a woman. I read Promise 1 and immediately my interest was peaked..

Live And Work A Passionate Life, neither of which I really do. I do my job not because I love it, but because I have to. I used to love my job, but it is a thankless job. When there is no support system, no one to back you up, you feel like your fighting a hopeless battle. You then succumb and become what the kind of employee the company wants you to be, not the employee you want to be. In my personal life, my passion is my son and making sure that he is growing up to be the best man possible with such obstacles in his life.

Promise 2: I Will Go For It Or Reject It Out Right…wow. This chapter made me think a lot. Very few people know this about me, but when I was a child of 8 years old, I told my grandmother that I wanted to be an actress or a lawyer when I grew up. Well, the dream of being an actress is far from over, but being a lawyer is still something I think about on a weekly basis. I had my son at 19 and have been using that as my excuse for not going to college.

Now at 31, I still use that excuse and follow up with “Well seeing as he has learning disabilities he will need me there to help him. His schooling is more important than mine is.” When in the reality of it, yes he needs me there, but maybe not as much as I think he does. It made me realize that I need to make a choice, either follow my heart or dismiss the dream all together. All these years I could have been working at it slowly, part time but I let the excuses get in the way and determine what I was going to do with my life. Would I feel more accomplished and fufilled if I make my dream of being a lawyer a reality. I bet I would!!

So with all that said, there is much more to this chapter and if you would like to finish reading it, which I would recommend, then check it out at http://insideeverywoman.com/ You have nothing to lose, it really opened my eyes to a lot of things in my life and will be the first self help book I own.

Sometimes I Wonder

I am always checking out the business opportunity ads in the classifieds of my local news paper. I find them fascinating and wonder if it is something I could possibly do.

Sometimes I wish that I did not have to work to make everyone else money. I’d really like to be my own boss. I often check them out to see if one of these little ads will have something I like to do.

If you look at the long and short of it, you really are still making money for someone else. Taker for instance the candy and toy machines you find in your local grocery or departments stores. Granted you may have the rights to those machines but a portion of all those quarters have to go to the person who supplies you with the product. So in reality you would be hoping and praying enough kids come out of the store and beg their parents for something. So really your still working to make someone else money.

Random babble now over….carry on.

$4000.00, That's It?!?!

My alarm clock sounded at 5 am, 30 minutes early than normal and would not shut up OR go away!

Meet my alarm clock....

How cute is she??

So I reluctantly got up, made coffee and started surfing the net. I found this story and was shocked.

This guy goes into a German hospital for brain surgery, the doctor's had to remove the top of his skull (obviously). So they toss his skull in the fridge to preserve it so they can reattach it after the operation. Well apparently the refrigerator was faulty and spoiled his skull! So the doc's had to give him a prosthetic skull made of plastic to protect his brain.

This man goes to court and is awarded 3,000 euros or 4,000 USD, not because the doctor's had to give him a fake head, but because the operation caused him discomfort! Ummm, what's wrong with this picture? Go in for an operation, have your skull cut off and have it replace with plastic and all you get is a settlement for discomfort caused by an operation? He is a much better person than I am because if I had to have a plastic head for the rest of my life, I would certainly be a little pissed off!!

I Would Like A New Couch

If you are anything like me, then you like to have nice things in your house. Your home really gives people a sense of who you are. Recently my husband and I decided we are going to get home furniture . I always love to get new things and really want to start with our living room. It is the first room you walk into when you come to our house and I really want to leave an impression on the people who come over.

Today I have spent some time poking around on the Internet trying to get some ideas of what I want. I really would like to get another sectional, one with a pull out bed and a Chase Lounge. I would really LOVE one of those. Hmmm I wonder if I could convince my husband.

Something like this one, it doesn’t have the pull out bed bust it does have the Chase Lounge:

My Thoughts on Michael Vick

“He was raised in the South”

“He didn’t know any better”

“They are just making and example out of him because he is famous”

“He is a superstar, that is why it is all over the news”

“If he was white nobody would have made such a big deal about it”

These are just a few of the comments I have heard from people trying to defend Michael Vick and his actions.

I read Michael Vick’s apology statement from yesterday.

“I want to apologize to all the young kids out there for my immature acts and you know what I did was immature, so that means I need to grow up.”

Let’s look at this statement a little better“immature acts” should have been “illegal acts”, “you know what I did was immature” should be “you know what I did was illegal” and “I need to grow up” should be “I deserve to be punished for what I did and face any and all legal ramifications that come my way.” His sorry ass couldn’t even say it!

“I am upset with myself and through this situation I have found Jesus and I asked him for forgiveness and I’d just turned my life over to God. I think that’s the right thing to do as of right now”

Now what he really wanted say:

“I am feeling very sorry for myself right now. I have found Jesus because that seems to be the thing all the prisoners say. It seems when you apologize for such a heinous crime like the one I committed people seem to get a soft spot in their hearts for you when you throw Jesus into the mix. When I get out of jail I will continue to participate in dog fighting, I'll just be better about not getting caught. I am just hoping enough people will feel sorry for me oh and I never realized GOD spelled backwards is DOG.”


“I have got a lot of down time, a lot of time to think about my actions and what I’ve done and how to make Michael Vick a better person.”

What this really says is:

Now that I am facing jail time I need to do some research on how to protect my asshole from all the men who may want to pound me. I am really working hard on getting prison officials to put me in solitary confinement.


Hey ASSHOLE…what about those dogs you killed? Where did you get them from, did you steal them from yards or did you buy them from people who thought they were going to good homes. Did you and your fellow dumb ass associates convince animal shelters you were going to love and care for these animals?

If he killed 8 dogs in April, how many did he kill in March, February, January or even last year. You can’t tell me he only killed 8 dogs. I didn’t hear him apologize to the dog’s he hung from trees or held under water until their lungs were filled with the liquid.

I wonder if maybe a 4 to 5 hundred pound man should drag your ass to a swimming pool and hold you under until you are ready to lose consciousness. Then he should let you get your breath back and do it over and over again. Then maybe this man could take a rope and toss it around your neck and hang you from a tree. Then repeat as necessary. After he has completed your hanging maybe he could grab you by your feet and throw your ass against the ground so that you could feel the pain that poor dog went through before he finally succumbed to your evil ways.

As far as I am concerned you deserve no sympathy and you have every right to get the same treatment that those helpless animals received. I often wonder how you sleep at night and if you could murder, yes what you did is considered murder, a dog, it makes me wonder how you treat people.

I certainly hope you don’t ever return to football, you don’t deserve it and if you should return I hope you are forced to donate some of your profits to local and national animal rescue organization’s.

Part 2 - Traumatizing Experience - My Niece's Story

Continued from yesterday

Last Wednesday I dropped “Z” & my niece, I’ll call her “E”, off with my parents. They spent till Friday at my parents house then drove down to Massachusetts Friday afternoon to visit with my Great Grandmother, add one more Great to that for the kids.

I am guessing my Dad dropped my Mom & the kid’s off then went to his best friend’s house for the night. He doesn’t really care to hang out with a 90 something year old lady & she doesn’t really care to hang out with him either! I mean they like each other but, what do you talk about?

They all went out to dinner & then they went back to Great Grama G’s house, hung out and chatted. It was around 10 pm & Z decides to go & lay down on the couch. E is on the phone with her mom & goes into the living room to see if Z wanted to talk to her mom. He didn’t..doesn’t surprise me at all!! E was getting ready to go back to the bedroom & then it happened!

Great Grama G decided it was time for bed as well and forgot that she had company. E was leaving the living room while Grama G was coming out of the bathroom and Grama G came our without a shirt on.



Worse than that my niece who is now screeching, squeeling & laughing hysterically says, “OMG Auntie, she didn’t have a shirt on or a BRA! Can you believe it, NO BRA! I have never seen anything like it before in my whole entire life!! (Her whole 13 years) She was walking all hunched over & her boobies, her boobies were hanging and swinging. I swear they had to of hung down to her waist. (she is now walking like Grama G) It was soooo terrible. I didn't know what to do, so I ran back to the living room & tried to wake Z up, but he just yelled at me to leave him alone. I wanted him to see it!! Plus she goes to the bathroom with the door wide open. Did she forget we were there?? I never ever want to see anything like that again!!”



Whew..LOL.......Now imagine a 13 year old girl telling you this! All the red is every word she said loud and dramatic.

So I tried to explain that she was 90 something years old and has lived alone for over 20 years. You get into habits that you just don’t think about anymore. Plus at 90 your mind isn’t all there. She didn’t quite get it.

All I can say is... thank goodness Z didn’t get up! Talk about being traumatized!!

If you have any of those embarrassing childhood stories, please do share

I Love Halloween

My favorite holiday is right around the corner... Halloween! Boy, I cannot wait!! It has to be my all time favorite holiday. Even as a kid I preferred Halloween over any other holiday, even Christmas.

I dress up just about every year with “Z”. My husband has started to do it as well, last year we were all scary monsters. I always love to have such fun with my two most favorite guys in the world. This year I have decided that I will be throwing Halloween parties the weekend before Halloween. So my thought was to do two parties, one for the kids on Saturday afternoon and one for the adults only on Saturday night.

As for my costume this year, I defiantly will have to get two. One to wear for the kids party and to walk around with my son on Halloween night and one for the adult only party. We will be having a Halloween party inside so I can were just about anything I want. I found this site that has naughty Halloween costumes. Some of these costumes are pretty cool. They are not too revealing and I think if I wore one it would completely blow my husbands mind!! I could only imagine the look on his face if I came out in one of those sexy Halloween costumes. He would probably die!

I was thinking about the Sexy Straight A’s School Girl costume or perhaps the Sexy Referee costume. A lot of great choices and not a lot of time to think about it, so I guess I should figure it out.

Adult sexy Halloween costumes don’t need to be saved for just Halloween. LOL..wanna spice things up? Buy a couple of them to have “on hand”. I am sure we all know what I am getting at.

So if you are looking for a Halloween costume or just something to wear to “spice” things up, check out http://www.oursexycostumes.com/ and see what you can find. Happy Shopping!!

The One Answer Meme'

The one word blog meme. Nick of Anything Goes! tagged me for this meme. I love the meme's that require no thought at all...don't want to get involved in "rocket science" as Nick would put it. So unlike my friend Nick, I will keep my answers to ONE word! Unless of course I have to use more than one!

Where is your cell phone? Purse

Relationship? Married

Your hair? Shoulders

Work? Yup

Your sister? None

Your favourite thing? Computer

Your dream last night? None

Your favorite drink? Coffee

Your dream car? Cadillac Escalade

The room you're in? Living Room

Your shoes? flipflops

Your fears? Dying

What do you want to be in 10 years? not sure

Who did you hang out with this weekend? My family

What are you good at? LOL....

Muffin? Dog? <------Wondering what Nick was thinking about!?!?

One of your wish list items? Ummm..to see my son grow up to be a happy man.

Where you grew up? United States

Last thing you did? Watched TV

What are you wearing? jammies

What aren't you wearing? LMAO....

Your pets? cat's

Your computer? HP

Your life? Son

Your mood? Bored

Missing? Mom

What are you thinking about right now? This meme'

Your car? Expedition

Your kitchen? Big

Your summer? Busy

Your favourite colour? Saphire Blue

Last time you laughed? 2 hours ago

Last time you cried? Hmmmm

School? Nope.

Love? My husband and son

Now for my pick's and good luck keeping it to one word. :0)

Ann - Trenting - La Delirante - Angrybarcode - Random Magus

Traumatizing Childhood Sights

Have you ever seen anything as a kid that just seemed to stick with you?

This happened when I was about 16 years old.

I went school shopping with my Mom and when we got home I went in the house before her. I walked into the living room to go upstairs, only to find my father napping in his recliner........... naked! I was mortified and ran into the kitchen. Now I was so000 embarrassed that I pretended to look for something to eat in the refrigerator. My Mom came in the house looked at me funny and asked why my stuff was not up in my room. All I could think to choke out was "Cause".

She looked at me funny, proceeded walked into the living room and saw the same thing I did. To this day I laugh my ass off when I think about it. She shrieked at my dad and I had never heard her scream his name so loud before.

He must have done this alot when I was not home. I remember her saying "How many fuckin times do I have to tell you to put your underwear on BEFORE you sit down in that fuckin chair. You know you always fall asleep the minutes you sit down."

LOL...what makes it even more funny to me is remembering how she swore at him. You will rarely and I mean rarely hear my mom swear, so when she does it is kinda funny!

So with my that traumatizing tale told, tomorrow I will share what happened to my 13 year old niece this weekend..and no it has nothing to do with my dad!...LOL

Due For An Adults Only Vacation

My husband and I have always wanted to go to Las Vegas. From all the research I have done, there is always something to do and never anytime to get bored. Like most people that is what I want from a vacation.

One of the hotels I was checking out was the Sahara hotel. I found something that seems really cool for the racing enthusiast. My husband, like his father is NASCAR fan. At the Sahara Hotel they have a NASCAR Café. How cool is that? With an innovative roller coaster that accelerates to 70 miles per hour in just 2 seconds. They name of this rollercoaster fits it perfectly..Speed. What I find really neat is that fact that Speed the ride is launched from inside the restaurant! I think my husband would get a kick out of this restaurant. (I certainly hope everyone is going on the roller coaster before they sit down to eat.)

I could go to the spa and get pampered for the day and then go back to the room, get dressed up for a nice romantic evening with my other half? Hmmm..sounds nice to me.

(This would be an adult’s only vacation, that’s for sure!!)

Monday Morning Mischief

A man and his wife are in the shower together when the doorbell rings. The wife puts on a robe and goes down to answer the door.

In walks her husband’s friend Ben. The woman tells him her husband’s in the shower and asks if he can come back later. Instead, Ben steps in and quietly says, "I have $400 in my pocket. I’ll give it to you if you’ll open your bathrobe for me." She’s offended, but really needs the money so she agrees, opens her robe, and lets Ben have a quick peek before doing it up again. Ben gives her the $400, and she opens the door for him to leave, but he says, "I have another $400 in my other pocket. I’ll give it to you if you let me touch your breasts." Now she’s really mortified, but again, she needs the money, so she undoes her robe and lets him have a quick feel. Taking the other $400 from him, she lets him out the door.

Going back upstairs, she gets back in the shower with her husband, feeling a little bit guilty.
"Who was that?" the husband asks.

"Oh, that was just Ben," the wife answers.

"Ben?" the husband says. "That son of a bitch owes me 800 bucks!"

Being Away

We have had a pretty busy couple of weeks. We went to Maine, came home Sunday and Wednesday "Z" and my niece went to my parent's house. Today we have a family get together to go to at my aunt's house (my dad's sister) in Vermont. I will pick "Z" and my niece up there and bring them back to CT.

So I am really excited because I have missed "Z" tremendously. I am usually ok for a few days but after that life kinda becomes boring. I wish could just send him away when he drives me crazy, but the long and short of it....I would miss him a ton.

He completes his time at IOL the first week of school. The insurance company only approved 4 more visits for him. So the clinician and I have decided that he would go 2 days next week and 2 days the following week. He will then be discharged back to his previous counselor and I hope he continues to work hard with her as he did with the group therapy. Only time will tell.

So the next couple of weeks we will be preparing to go back to school. School starts September 4th this year and I am looking forward to "Z" having a much better year.

For Fear Of My Life

I didn't sleep very well last night. Why? For fear of my life!! See here for more information!

I informed my husband that he had better not even think about invading my personal space because I would be ready this time. And I was..Z is with my parents so I grabbed his comforter and pillows and laid them on the floor to cushion my fall, if a repeat of last night was going to happen.

So about 2:45 a.m. I am stating to feel a little space invasion action happening. I slept really poorly and was on guard all night. So I am laying there with one eye open watching him move closer and closer to me. Before I know it he has completely infiltrated my part of the bed.

I said" Not tonight pal, roll your ass back over to your side of the bed."

Silence, I close my eye.

I repeated myself and added "Listen, I slept really crappy all night and you really need to move over."

Low and behold, a repeat of last night, fake sleeping. Before I know what happened, he shoves his finger up my nose, jabs me in the stomach and says " Why did you sleep so crappy?"

My eyes popped open, I smacked his hand away, added a few choice words and said "Because I had to stand guard all night long and make sure there would not be another tumble out of bed."

Now he is laughing and adds "Tonight I am going to go shopping, you wanna go?"

I am thinking to myself "Why the hell is he talking about shopping for at 3 in the morning."

I asked "Shopping...for what?

"I was going to go an buy you a gift!" he says.

Well like most woman I LOVE presents, especially when they are surprises.

All excited I said "Oooo, where are we gonna go?

and this is the answer I got...........................................

"I thought I would take you to the furniture store so that you could pick out the side rails you wanted for the bed. I would hate to choose something you didn't like considering you would be the one who has to look at them every night."

Now he is laughing hysterically, I am wide awake and not longer interested in being in the same bed as him. I smacked him in the head and got up out of bed. This is going to be a long day!!

So I just looked in the room and you'll never guess where he is......dead smack in the middle of bed, sprawled out!

Tonight, I am sleeping on the couch!

A Walk For Alzhiemer's Disease

There are many diseases I never given much thought to, not because I do not care or I am oblivious to them but because I do not have anyone in my family that is directly affected by them. One of them I do wonder about on occasion is Alzheimer’s disease. My paternal grandmother had this disease, a man I work with, his mother has been diagnosed with it, and I have been able to see the challenges he has gone through. Some of them have been quite scary to say the least.

Alzheimer’s is a common but very serious brain disorder. If affects your memory and your ability to express your thoughts. You misplace things or become unfamiliar with what should be very familiar or you will see changes in personalities and behavior. There is currently no cure for Alzheimer’s Disease but there is a way to help.

The Alzheimer's Association along with Genworth Financial sponsor an event every year to raise awareness and money to help find a cure for this disease that affects so many people and their families. Wondering what you can do to help? Well you can join the Memory Walk, it’s held nationwide on a weekend morning in the fall and consists of a short walk, 2-3 miles and as we all know there is nothing like a nice walk on a cool, crisp fall morning to get your blood flowing.

There are several options available. You can become a team captain and ask your friends or family to walk with you and you ask for donations for this cause. If you can’t find anyone to join your team you could always join one in your local area. If for some reason you unable walk but still want to be involved in the Memory Walk, you could become a volunteer or just donate money to a team.

So why not help “walk” out Alzhiemer’s Disease. Form a team and become a team captain. I know I am going to join this event and try to get a team formed. I will defiantly post my progress.

Ever Been Woke Up Out Of A Dead Sleep??

Last night I had a rude awakening.

I was sound asleep, minding my own business on my side of the bed, which mind you I have to share foot space with 2 cats and all of a sudden I woken up out a blissful dream to a loud crash.

Now my initial thought was the damn cats were up to no good again. They can get very rambunctious at times and terrorize you while you are sleeping. You become their personal play ground, they run and bounce on you while they chase each other, anyways I could go on and on about them but let me get back to this.

As I was saying, here I am swearing at my cats only to remember one of them is outside and the other is staring at me. That is how she wakes me up...by staring. it is a very creepy feeling....anywho.. All of a sudden I feel this sharp jabbing pain through my hip. Then it all becomes clear. I realize that loud crash, well, that was me falling out of bed and hitting the hardwood floor like a ton of bricks. So I kinda lay there, sprawled out on the floor for a few minutes, got my thought process straight and sat up.

Now, the hall light is on and shining through the cracked door. I look at my husband who mind you is now on my side of the bed and he is fake sleeping. Wanna know how I know he was fake sleeping? Because he had freakin tears running out of his eyes as he silently laughed to himself and held in the noise. Dumb ass….

So I look at him, let out a huge sigh and stand up. He has now covered his head with the pillows and blanket (that’s cause he knows what comin). Laughing hysterically, he asks me what I was doing on the floor. He explains that I would get a much better nights sleep if I slept in bed. (he is going to get his)

I was not impressed, not at all.

I am 31 years old and I think the last time I fell out of bed I was 6 years old. Didn’t feel good then and it really doesn’t feel good now.

Now one would think that I have a full size or even a queen size bed. NOPE, I have a King size bed and my husband still manages to hog more than ¾ of the bed. There have been many mornings I have woke up and found myself teetering on the edge, this time I teetered off the bed.

I think it is time to invest in a Stun Gun. That’ll teach him!

Show Off Your Pictures

I love having picture’s of my family at my desk here at work. Although I have a decent size work space, I can’t very well bring in all my picture frames from home and hang them on the wall. My job is pretty cool about personal stuff but I am sure there is a limit. I have few pictures of my son and husband and one of my cats. When I am having a bad day it is nice to look over and see a happy face.

So I have been thinking about getting a digital picture frame. I like it because I could save a lot of different pictures to the memory card and have a variety of pictures. Although I love the pictures I already have, it would be nice to look at different ones in a digital photo frame. I wonder if Santa Clause will bring me one?!? I guess I’ll have to start talking about it!!

It really would be a great gift for that special someone (like me!) who takes alot of great digital photos. What do they do with those photos? They leave them on the computer or save them on a disk, hmmm, again like me. Let them share their photos with the world. So hint, hint honey, if you are reading this!!

This is the one I would like…

Busy Day Today

So today will be one of those "rip your hair out" days. I have to go to work , of course. Try to get as much done there before 1:45. From there I have to bring "Z" to the doctor and he needs to be there for 2:30. After that I have to pick my niece up and take her and "Z" to meet my parents 2 hours away from here. The will be spending the rest of the week with my parent. Ahhhh, a long over do break for me!!

So, I am really excited about seeing my niece. I have never talked about her due to the fact that I have not seen her in about nine years. My brother and I don't exactly get along and they moved to New York so that kinda put a wedge there as well. Now my niece lives in Connecticut with a family friend so I am hoping to be able to see more of her. She has been living with this lady for sometime and I just never pushed the issue to see to hard. Mentioned it a couple of times to my Mom but nothing really came out of it. It is kinda hard to walk into someones life, especially a child and expect things to go as if nothing ever happened. I think a nice relationship will blossom though. When I spoke to her last night, she told me that she loved me. It shocked me, mostly because I wasn't expecting it, but I sure do love her and have missed her alot.

"Z" is excited as well, this seems to be a great summer for him. He has reconnected with his 1/2 sister, which I think he really needed and now his cousin. He will also get to meet two of his other cousin's at a family get together this weekend. They are my niece's brother's and are much younger and a little off the wall from what I am told. I have never met them either, only seen pictures of them.

With all that said, let the rat race begin!

My Son And His Allowance, Well The Lack Of It

I try to give my 12 year old son an allowance but he never seems to want to do his chores. LOL..what kid wants chores? I always find myself reminding him that he always wants to buy things and without money, it is pretty hard thing to do, but at the same time I want him to save his money for something special that he wants.

There are a couple of options out there. I could open him a savings account. Never to early to learn about banking. There is also this prepaid Visa card called PAYjr Visa Buxx card which is available for children 13 year old and up. This card allows your load your child's allowance onto a prepaid Visa. Chores are kept track of by using the Chore and Allowance Management System. This system is available to children 12 and under as well. Will this be the answer to my dilemma? I don't really know, but I think I am willing to give it a shot.

What A Day Yesterday

As you all know the first day back to work after vacation is the worst. Usually I am ready to be back, but not this year.

I am getting a new boss, so they rearranged the office to make room for him while I was gone. The 2 people I sat in there with before are have been moved. They brought out my current boss, who I might add, has been given a new position. All the space I had before is now gone. I sit in the middle of the room surrounded by filing cabinets and cubicale dividers. It feels an awful lot like a sardine can more than anything else. I lost my comfort zone.

So I guess it will another adjustment to make. I usually adjust well, so I don't see it being a problem.

Monday Morning Mischief

Little Johnny returned home from school, informing his father that he received an F in arithmetic and a stern spanking.

“What happened?” asked the father.

“Well,” little Johnny said, “the teacher asked ‘How much is two times three?’ and I said ‘six.’”

“But that’s right!” said the father.

“Then,” said little Johnny, “she asked me, ‘How much is three times two?’”

“What’s the fucking difference?” asked the father.

“That’s what I said!”

Thinking About Next Years Vacation

Never too soon to think about vacation for next year. After this summers vacation it will be just my hubbie, my son, my stepdaughter and me. I want to enjoy the next one!

With all the blogging I have done I have come across many neat blogs. They range from personal, political, funny and a lot of them that talk about traveling. I was looking for some recommendations and travel news. During my search I came across the blog http://blog.ratestogo.com/ . I found this site to be informative, new, not a lot of content but some very interesting ideas for vacation spots. There are plenty of links to other areas to check out. In honor of my vacation that just ended, there is a link to 4 things to do while Camping. My most favorite of the four, playing Texas-Holdem Poker, for sheets of toilet paper!

If it is luxury you are looking for, you can rent the most expensive hotel room in Las Vegas for a measly 40 g’s a night. That is if you have that kind of pocket change! I know I don’t, but at least I have the luxury of looking at the pictures. So you must be wondering who this hotel room belongs to? None other than Hugh Heffner himself, sorry guys from what I read, girls are not included but there is a complete bar, personal swimming pool and huge flat screen monitors in every room. What more do you need?

My Mother In Law

Well all I can say is now I know why my husband is the way he is. After spending 5 days with that women, I luv my mom more than ever. Thanks for being normal Mom & Dad!!

I always knew that she was off he rocker but holy crap, never like this. She constantly nagged and complained, about everything!! Why did you bother to ask us up there if you were going to be this way? (She is the type of person who can not handle any type of stress, if there is stress, there is bound to be a melt down.)

Her famous line for the week was, "Annmarie, are you having a good time?"

I would put on my freakin happy face and respond with a "Yes" and think "If you ask me that one more F'in time I think I will shove a log in your mouth!"

This is the way the conversation SHOULD have gone.

"You know what, I would be having a good time IF someone would put my niece on one of those huge orange tubes you have and drop her off in the middle of the lake. I really can't take the whining and temper tantrums any longer. Why do you all let her talk to you like she does?It really doesn't make sense to me.

It would also be a plus if you would shut your fuckin mouth and stop your bitching. If you don't think you can handle that let me know, there is an extra orange tube with your name all over it!!

So if you think I am having a good time getting eatin alive by bugs, sleeping in a tent with my husband AND my son, without running water and a shower, plus having to listen to you, guess what, I am not. Oh and while your at the cooler, grab that bottle vodka and never mind the soda.

One more thing, please don't tell me you love me again, personally I can't stand you. You can act phoney in front of your son but you talk way to much shit that gets back to me..So the next time you want to know what is wrong with that girl, why don't you ask me!!

So vacation really was not a vacation after all. Vacation is when you go somewhere fun and RELAXING. This was just the same old thing, just in Maine and not Connecticut.

Vacation Is OVER

I am not home yet, but I am on my way!! My hubbie hid the laptop from me, told me this was a family vacation and bla, bla, bla. So be it I guess, atleast I have it now for the way home!

It started pretty bad, I came down with the flu Tuesday morning and still drove the 10 hours. I wished I had stayed home, I did have the choice but I figured that I would try to be a good sport and go. I was ok the next day, not at the top of my game but ok. It was most certainly the longest 5 days of my life. I will be fine as long as I don't have to see any of them for the next month. I have had my dose of them all!!!

Tomorrow At Noon..NOOOOOOO

Tuesday at Noon, I am on vacation. I may not be able to blog, due to my husband wanting to go to the sticks of Maine and spend a week with his Mom and Step dad at their little camp in the woods. Ugh..I am so not looking forward to it, spending 5 days with my mother in law is not a vacation. I will be bringing my laptop so hopefully I can get service.

So we decided that it was only fair. We have gone to my parent’s house for vacation every year for the last 3 years. It’s not like they live in the same town as us or even the same state. His mom lives less than 10 minutes away and he can see her everyday if he wants. But it’s ok..we will go to Maine.

Every summer his mom and step dad go up there and spend a couple of weeks. They take my niece (SIL’s daughter) with them. My husband has not been there in years and really wants to go. He claims I will LOVE IT. We’ll see….

So I guess this place is in the middle of no where or better known as East Butt-F*ckville. Included in the middle of no where is a little of: No Running Water, No Shower, No Electricity, No Privacy, No Sanity!! I hear there is a toilet, a flush when you really need to type! (Oh and there is a lake to bathe in?!?!?) I am really thinking about taking a bunch of laxatives so I get a major case of the shits and get to go to a hotel room.
(so what are the chances you think I am going to LOVE it?)

So it will be a houseful of crazy’s. The crazy’s include: My Mother in Law, Sister in Law, my niece and my husband. My husband is usually ready to kill my mother in law after 8 hrs. What the hell is he going to do when it comes to 5 days?? I have a hard time dealing with his mom as well, but an even harder time dealing with my niece. I may have to give her some of Z’s medication before the week is up and I may just spend those 5 days drunk..I am a typically happy drunk, so it should work out ok.

Then there is me, my son, my father in law and my stepdaughter. We pretty much are emotionally stable!

So if you read this whole post and made it to this point, thanks! Also, if you have one of those families you can’t stand and have some advice…PLEASE SHARE IT!!

Monday Morning Mischief

An 80 year old woman goes to the doctor. "My husband wants me to look 19 down there again; is there anything you can do?"

The doctor says, "Well, let's have a look. I'm sure I can fix that."

So the old lady goes in for the surgery and wakes up the next day to find three roses on her pillow. "Who are these from?" she asks the nurse.

The nurse says, "The first one is from the doctor. He says, 'Congratulations, the surgery went well and everything looks good.' The second one is from your husband, he can't wait for you to come home. And the third one is from Ernie in the burn unit. He says thanks for the new ears."

7 P's of Me

So I was tagged by Ann at A Nice Place In The Sun for this meme. Thanks Ann!


WVb A blog about everything and more created this meme called the 7 P's in an effort to learn more about the blogs they read on a regular basis.


So here are my 7 P's.............

Passion: my son

Purpose: have not figured that on out yet.

Pursuit: to help my son become the best man he can be

Position: I have to ponder this one

Pummeling: my pessimistic thinking

Progress: Have raised my son & done a good job, even after people doubted me.

Personality: Straight forward, honest, loving, kind


Ok, so now I need to pick a few others to answer these same 7 P's of me..............

Nick - Kristyn - Laurie Anne - Angie Lee - Marzie - Jean

Summer Is Coming To An End

Z will be heading off to school again, something I a not really looking forward to! I hope this school year will be far better than last year. My vetern readers know all about this, any new ones my not.

Z had a rough year last school year, rough is putting it lightly. He had countless detentions and was suspended a total of 15 times. I think back and partially hold myself responsible. What I mean by that is, he has Adhd with severe impulsively, co-morbid with tourettes and auditory hallucinations. Plus being a child who never talks about his feelings he was holding in alot of anger. He was not on any medication for the Adhd, h had taken Ritalin for years and started making throat noises. Turned out it was a vocal tic caused by the stimulant medication. I took him off and he was not put back on any medication till he revealed that he was hearing voices. At the end of the school year (yeah I know a little late) he was put on Strattera, a non stimulant, to treat the Adhd.

This summer was his summer to work on himself. I must say I was a little apprehensive about whether or not he would go to this counseling program and follow it as he should. He track record showed that he wouldn't. Well I am happy to say that he has. Over all he is a happier child, more positive, still a little moody but he is 12 and has hormones flaring.

He has been talking with his older sister who he doesn't get to see very often but loves to death, he has made a true friend, who even though has moved has continued to keep in contact. As a matter of fact he stayed over there Friday night. I see a brighter future for him.

Since starting the medication's things at home are better too. I no longer have to be after him to get in the shower or to brush his teeth. He just does these things now. He makes his bed, does his chores and I think for him it feels nice not to have me on his "ass" all the time. It makes for a sressful house when you are on someones case all the time. They get mad, you get mad, what a vicious cycle.

So with that said I love my boy alot and want nothing for the best for him. He feels good and that is all that matters!!

Oh and one other thing, he says he wants to be a Chef when he grows up! If you asked him at the beginning of the summer he would have snarled at you and said "I don't know, leave me alone.". He has always liked to cook but since watching the show Hell's Kitchen he really has gotten into it. He says he wants to go on the show and meet Gordan Ramsey..hmmmm..........For right now he is the new grill master!

Meet my pride and joy.........

I'm Thinking About Lasik Eye Surgery

I often wonder if I could have Lasik surgery. I wear glasses and contact lenses. Most pictures of me are with out my glasses or obviously wearing contacts. There is a picture of me on this blog and you guessed it, no glasses. I have a severe astigmatism and always assumed that I could not have Lasik eye surgery. However, with new technology it may be something I consider and possibly do next year.

I have looked at many sites for Lasik info and finally have found one with a wealth of information. Click the link for Lasik info provided by USAEyes. USAEyes does not provide actual Lasik surgery but they defiantly provide you with information and with a list of doctors licensed to perform the surgery. All their services are free and are defiantly worth checking out. Your eyes are important, so I would suggest doing some research on Lasik info to make the best decision for yourself.

I hope to be able to tell you about my Lasik eye surgery experience soon. I would love nothing more than to ditch the glasses and contact lenses.

Update on Thursday

So Thursday afternoon I went to the doctor and she found a couple of spots that were hard and very tender to the touch. She sent my for a breast ultrasound and it was then and only then that I actually got emotional about this whole thing. for the most part I am a very strong woman but this was sure not one of those times.

The radiologist looked at the pictures and could see nothing wrong. I was relieved in a sense but still have unanswered questions. She said that it could be a change in hormones or thickening of the breast tissue. I do have an appointment to see my doc at the end of the month. Doc said "Take Advil for any discomfort and leave it alone, well check again at the end of the month."

So that is it for now..

Something For The Guys

I came across this and all I can say is, I feel sorry for who ever has to clean the floor, walls, toilet and who knows what else! Well, I guess the aim may not be so good even if there was no game to play.

Wake Up People and Get Out Of My Way!!

Ever sit in traffic or at a light only to be cut off? I know I have! Maybe you have been on the highway and a careless motorist almost drives into you from their lane? That happened to me a couple of years ago and it was sure scary. Maybe someone is sitting at that green light that you have been waiting to get through and they fail to realize that it has turned green because they are to busy flapping their lips to a passenger. What are you to do??

Well now, you can show everyone just how annoying they are with out getting a major case of road rage. Why don’t you consider getting a train horn . That will wake them up or get them out of your way and it is much safer than running your mouth or giving someone the finger!

The train horn has monster pressure and has a sound of up to 175DB. The kit also comes with everything you need to hook it up to your boat, car or truck. If you are lucky enough to own a train, well, you can hook it up to that as well!

So remember the train horn the next time another motorist annoys you and you want to give them a piece of your mind! Want to hear what it sounds like? Click here!! You won't be disappointed.





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I Am A Little Nervous...

and I hate the feeling.

I never mentioned this before and I am not quite sure why. I blab the rest of my personal life all over this blog. I know that I am not the only woman who has gone through this, but when it is YOU it seems to be a different story.

This is a little more personal so I think I felt like I shouldn't post it. I know that there are alot of people out there who have and are still going through something scary in their lives. So with that in mind, this may be worth the post. Maybe there is someone out there who is going through something similar who is afraid to go and see the doctor in fear of finding out what it really could be. With that said.......................

For the last couple of weeks I have has pain in one of my breast's and more or less tried to ignore it. Well, ignoring it stopped yesterday.

On Tuesday I woke up with a burning sensation and a jabbing pain in my breast. I tried to put it in the back of my mind, mentioned it to my husband and kinda went on with my day. Yesterday I woke up and I had the same thing, the burning with jabbing pain except something new. My breast was swollen (as if I need them to be any bigger..LOL..atleast I can still find humor) so now I got a little concerned and I asked one of my close friends to either confirm or deny what I saw. She is very straight forward and never tells you what you want to hear. If your hair cut looks bad and you are trying to convince yourself that it looks good, then you go see her, she will tell ya what the deal really is!! (That's why I love her so much)

So anywho, she agreed (and yes I left my shirt on!!) so I made a call to my doctor. I had to leave a message but got a call back with in 30 minutes asking me to go to their other office tomorrow, which is now today, for a breast test. EEEkkkk!!!

I am pessimistic and I think this is the first time I have tried to be extremely optimistic. I looked around at a few sites for some ideas of what it could be. I always try to be prepared for the worst. So I did the WebMD symptom checker and I also check out the Susan G. Komen website. It could be anything from a blocked duct, to an infection or even breast cancer.

So with that in mind I cried a little, I was at work so I was able to keep from letting the river flow but it still scares me.

So today is the day and I am sure that everything will be just fine!!

Are You Into Goth and Need A Date?

Everyone deserves to go on a date regardless of what race, religion or what your interests are. We all know dating is hard and when you live an alternative lifestyle, I am sure it can make it a little bit harder. I think life may get a little easier for those of you who are in to Goth. Check out gothic dating . This site is exclusively for those of you who are into Goth.

I did a search to see how many people where in my area. I am a woman and I like men, so the search came back with a 140 matches. If you like other women, well, search through the women. The possibilities are endless! So if you are looking for a date or to make new friends check out gothic dating at Gothscene.com and do not forget to tell your friends.

Can I Make You Laugh??

So yesterday I posted about my ladies room incident..

In honor of Trenting who said:
"That's great, my favorite was when I was in the stall, heard a huge thunderous fart, only to find out that the culprits shoes belonged to my boss! hahah.. priceless.."

I have this joke:

A woman on a bus is suddenly overcome with the urge to break wind. She tries to let go a squeaker but instead lets loose a loud, disgusting blast.

The entire bus goes silent, and the embarrassed woman desperately tries to think of something to say to the man sitting next to her.“Um…do you have a transfer ticket?” she finally asks.

“No, I don’t,” he replies. “But when we pass the next tree, I’ll try to grab you a handful of leaves.”

I Can Spare A Square!

Ever see the episode of Seinfeld when Elaine gets stuck in the stall without any toilet paper and the lady next to her refused to spare a square or even a ply? Funny shit!!

Anywho, I go into the ladies room here at work. There are two stales, one is occupied and the other is open. I decided that even though I usually will not use the bathroom when somebody else is in there, that I would this time. I push the door open and notice right away there is no toilet paper in there. Shit, I had to pee soo bad..Then the lady in the stalls says..

"I am almost done!"

EEEkk I thought..and yes I knew the voice.

"I am all set thanks!" I said. I am now thinking to myself, really, it's OK, I am not going to use the toilet right after you anyways. Needs a little time to air off before hover over that. Plus I need to be able to spray the seat with Lysol. A little grossed out I try to walk out the door.

again,

I hear her say, "I can hand you some toilet paper under the door."

Ummmm..ewwww...NO" I replied in a rather disgusted voice, "I am all set!"

I ran out of there

Now, I am pretty sure I offended her and really, I don't care!

First of all, the bathroom is not a place to socialize.

Secondly, you just got done wiping ur ass..now you are going to hand me toilet paper under the door. Mind you that this toilet paper will have your ass germs and germs from another area of your body all over it.

Thirdly I am not going to wipe YOUR ass germs on my ass or any other part of my body!! Little to personal for me thanks though!~

And last but not least..please, please don't ever talk to me in the bathroom again!!

But Thanks for being willing to spare a square!

PETA, Paris & Britney

Ok so I have nothing against PETA, hell I am all about animal rights. I have two cats who are treated more like humans than pets. They DO NOT eat table food, don't take baths, but they are pretty spoiled.

So PETA now figures they have the right to tell people where they can or can not get their pets. Apparently they feel they the need to go after Paris Hilton and Britney Spears because they purchased their dogs from breeders instead of going to the animal shelter and rescuing one.

Now don't get me wrong, people should rescue pets from the animal shelter and I am willing to bet that it is the last place a lot of people think of when they decide to get a new pet. I didn't get my cats from the animal shelter, one came from the pet store and the other from a friend.

Really now..I didn't see PETA making headlines here in Connecticut looking for who ever shot the poor seal in the head and left him for dead. What about that poor seal that apparently someone could of cared less about, what about his rights? Come on PETA where are you now?? This seal has rights, don't you think? You should be here trying to locate the asshole who shot at him. UMMM...recent search on your website and found nothing that mentioned this poor seal!! Not one thing..plenty of hits on Paris Hilton, a total of 47 and just as many on Britney Spears.
NOT 1 ON THE SEAL SHOT IN THE HEAD though.

Some of these breeders are terrible people, just as cruel and any Joe-Smoe in your neighborhood. My grandmother purchased a puppy who was terrified of brooms and I mean terrified. What do you think that breeder did to that puppy and the others? So in reality my grandmother may not of rescued a puppy from the shelter but she sure as hell rescued it from someone who may not have been very nice to it!

Get a grip..PETA, your cause is great but lets deal with something a little more important then 2 spoiled rich Hollywood brats who tote their dogs around in luggage and dress them up in doggie clothing.

Blog Of The Day...

Back on July 22nd Jennifer at The Life Of A School Bus Driver named me Blog of the Day over at her blog. I found it during my self pity party and non blogging spell. Thanks Jennifer..It was a nice surprise for me during such a crappy time.

I Am So Freakin Excited

I was really busy at work yesterday and did not have time to post. Although I did think about it on several occasions, I knew that if I stopped what I was doing I would do more than post a post. I would most definitely have to look at some blogs and leave some comments. Such a vicious cycle, isn't it???

Anywho, I got a call, well a voicemail, yesterday from Z's clinician at the counseling center. Oh boy I thought at first, but as I listened it was positive! She told me that he has been doing such a good job that she thought that it was time to cut him back to 4, yup you read it, 4 days a week. I wanted to cry.

He went through these phases there, the honeymoon period, which they give all the kids time to adjust. At that time they are really not forced into talking or participating in groups. That lasted about a week, then it turned into this is what you ARE going to do. He was required to sign a contract stating that he was going to participate in all activities.

About 2 1/2 weeks I ago I had to go to a meeting with him and his clinician and she said that he was not participating and they understand that sharing feelings is hard, but he really needed to and what could they do to help him make his baby steps? He was not very happy about having to do that but apparently took them seriously, because he has been doing what he needs to do there!

I am so proud of him, I of all people know how hard it is to talk and I don't want him to grow up to be an angry man who is out to get everyone who does him wrong.

So staring this week he will go Monday, Tuesday, have Wednesday off, go Thursday and Friday. He was hoping to have Mondays off so he could sleep late.

I said "Well, would you rather go 4 days in a row or have a mini break in the middle of the week? Something to look forward to!"

He thought about it and said "Yeah, that sounds like a good idea, I can still sleep late on Wednesdays."

Long Lost Friends

Have you ever found someone who you hadn’t talked to in years?? Whether it was 5 years or 10 years..hell maybe more?

I did…I actually found 2 of them at the beginning of this year. Has been 10 years since I have talked to one of them and about 12 to 13 years since I talked to the other.

I was really excited to find them..even though one of them I didn’t talk to on a daily basis sometimes not even a weekly, the other I did quite a bit. One of them not to long ago stopped talking to me all together. Very strange..we talked all the time and messaged each other a lot. Then one day just stopped! I still to this day I don’t know why..he told his cousin (who is the other long lost friend that I found) that he was having a hard time and he acknowledged that he hadn’t even called me anymore even after talking to me quite frequently. I can understand having a hard time, but hell why blow off your friends.

It is very obvious that I have my own issues and don’t need to hear about anyone else’s problems but hell, I would never just dust anyone off with out a reason why!

Anywho..I sent him an email, wished him the best and said if he ever wanted to talk he knew how to find me! More or less I got the hint and have a nice life!

Sick & Twisted World We live In

I was looking at a local news station's website and I read a story that just made me cringe.

It all happened in Blue Springs, Missouri. Two teenagers decided to kidnap a pregnant woman and whom one of them met on Myspace.com (WOW..Myspace has come under a lot of fire lately...) The plan seemed to be to cut the baby out of it's womb. They took her to a motel, tied her up and sat on her belly and tried twisting her neck as if to try an break it!!

OMG...what the hell is going on in this world?? I know there have been other stories like this but now teenagers are doing this??? Holy Shit...


Thank God the cops got a tip from someone in the hotel who heard her screaming and made a call about a woman in labor...Read the story here