So I have decided to quit smoking! I am 30 yrs old and have been smoking since I was 12. Not good. It dawned on me yesterday that I smoke more now than I ever have. Instead of one ciggie, coffee and ciggie, Its is 2 ciggies, coffee and another ciggie. Not good. I work in a factory and yet still manage to smoke over a 1/2 of a pack a day. Dh has no clue how bad I have gotten. I hide pack of cigerettes every where. That is so if he decided to see how many I have left, it always looks the same. He has no reason to bitch at me. Little does he know. so hopefully all will work out. I may end up coming and posting just to release my frustration.
It's Monday already??
So I worked Saturday, it kinda sucked. The overtime will be nice though. Otherwise I pretty much had a quiet weekend. Nothing to exciting.
I had to pick up SD from SIL house and got the Ice Face. She gave me a look as if to say" What are you doing here." and then walked into her cousins room without saying hi. I told DH about it and of course Daddy's Little Princess can do no wrong. He just accused me of hating her. Oh well..I won't put up with it for ever. If my son had done that he would have been pissed. Its the whole "your kid, my kid" thing and I am really sick of it. This weekend will be nice, I won't have the worry of her coming over. I really wish things were not this way, but he doesn't help to make them different. In the long run, it will be his loss. I will not hesitate to pack my bags and leave.
So its Friday!!
Today being Friday is usually a good thing, but I have to work tommorrow!! Which is ok, I don't mind. My husband sleeps late on the weekends so I am up by myself anyways. Well till my son gets up and he will be at a friends for the night.
It has been a long week, Z has been grounded almost all week. Nothing serious, just not doing what he is responsable for. he's 11 so I think he is capable of doing a lot of things.
My step-daughter also comes over tomorrow(she's 6). So it will be a fun-filled weekend of game playing. Not looking forward to it!! Last weekend she was over and she has another ear infection so Sunday morning she and Z have breakfast, I give her her medication. A couple of hours later her Dad gets up and he goes in the fridge and takes out the medication and just as she was just about to take it AGAIN, I walk in the kitchen and informed him that I already gave it to her. Most kids would have said something..nope not her. I swear sometimes she trys to make me look bad.
SD & I used to get along great. DH & I have been togther since she was 2. When we decided to get married (10/08/05) that all changed. She started to ignore me when I asked her questions. She come in the house and walk right by me. I still to this day haven't even finished paying for my wedding pics. All the pictures of her, us and the wedding party all suck!! She has this fuckin scowl on her face that makes me so pissed off. All the pictures she had taken with everybody else, she has a big smile looks happy. What does that tell you!!!
Everybody says it is because she wants mommy & daddy back together. Well, mommy and daddy only lived together for 2 months after she was born. So in reality she has no clue what it is like to have them live under the same roof. So now we are in the age of mind games and YEAH for me, I get to be the brunt of them all. I so look forward to next weekend when I don't have to deal with the bullshit.
My son is really trying hard to get me to undermind my DH. He got in trouble yesterday and was told he would not be able to go outside for the rest of the week. He keeps calling me telling me that he is bored. I tell him that there are a hundred of different things that he could do. Of course none of which he wants to. Oh well..a punishment is a punishment. I guess he will figure it out!!
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