Tired..

I am soo tired. I am in bed the recommended amount of hours, I just think it is time to replace the mattress. Ugh..not the right time to have to do that, but I guess it will have to happen once we get our tax refund. I told my husband that I did not want to get a cheap mattress, there is no sense in doing that. I really want a sleep number bed! My parents have one and they said it is the best bed they have ever owned and they would never go back to a conventional mattress again. I wonder if I could talk the hubby into one of those! Most likely not, I imagine that with our financial state it would not be wise to spend it all on material items! There is so much more we can do with the money..we'll see. For now I will keep all options open I guess.

Pills, Pills and more Pills

I just cleaned out my hall closet and found a ton of crap that still had not been unpacked from when we moved in back in July..I know pretty scary! The good thing is, well, it is now all unpacked! I found pain medication, cough syrup, a weight loss pill, diarrhea medication, Band Aids and so on. Some went in the trash and other stuff on the shelf.

Quite honestly though, I was hoping to move to a bigger place because moving in here was a huge mistake BUT since I lost my job and have had absolutely no luck finding another one, I mine as well just get comfy..ugh. Who knows, maybe I will get lucky and find a minimum wage job working at a fast food joint!

Television

I guess I could say my tv watching has increased a bit since I have lost my job. I know spring is around the corner and honestly, it couldn't get here any faster. I am sick o winter, sick of being trapped in the house and I guess just sick of being sick and tired. Same crap on tv all the time, same shows, same stupid commercials about high risk auto insurance companies, keeping comment to myself. I can't wait to get outside and enjoy the weather. This has been a loong winter with a lot of snow and not so great times. What I really need is a job and a hobby to keep me busy until I find a job. A hobby..that is tough! I am one of those, start everything and finish nothing types! Just like this...I always come back to blogging but, I never seem to stick with it. There is no commitment..I wonder why?

Hitting Home

So my husband informs me last night that lay off have begun at his job as well. When he told me that, I felt as though I was going to vomit..What the hell, I guess I need to start looking really hard for a job. Unfortunately all I have ever worked in was manufacturing, so that doesn't help me very much. Maybe I can take my great people skills and go be a waitress somewhere!

I dunno, sometimes I wonder though about life. What has happened the last few years to make living so crappy. I hate the state I live in, I should have moved when I had the chance. Where would I have gone? Not really sure, maybe the Outer Banks. Now it is to late, I got married and my husband has a daughter so he wouldn't go along with moving. I am not really sure why because she doesn't come over anymore anyways. Not quite sure why, but she hasn't been here in like 2 months. We aren't good enough for her to come visit on the weekends but we are good enough at holidays and her birthday which is 10 days away. Oh well...

"He Is Just Like You"

Last night we are getting ready for bed and I see that mt son's light is still on. I knock on the door, you never know what going on in there. (If you get my drift!) No answer, so I open the door and Zach is sleeping. Light on, tv on, basically the whole nine yards including his digital frame . So I shut everything off and go back into our room and my husband says "Ugh, he is just like you, why can't he just do what he is told."

My first thoughtl, what was he told? This is the first time that I know of that he has fallen asleep with the lights on and the tv is on a time, he just fell asleep early.

Second of all, just like me..The only question I asked was "Why did you marry me then? You come off as if my son is an annoyance, so why did you marry me" If my husband has the nerve to compare me to my son and I know how he feels about my son sometimes, why did he marry me?

All he said was "What are you talking about?" I left the room and went downstairs.

My life sucks.......................................................

Snow and more snow

I woke up this morning to a ton of snow! My goodness where is Spring?? Ugh, how I hate to shovel..Thank goodness the landlords groundskeepers showed up when they did, cause the snow is heavy! I was prepared though as usual, most of the time I beat them to it, not today though. That makes me happy. So I stripped off all of my safety equipment and now I am down here on the computer. After this post I will be job searching, I am so sick of being home. I need to get out of this house and even if it is part time work, I don't care. Staying home is defiantly taking a toll on me, my family of course loves it and why shouldn't they? Everything is done for them! Well, not everything but a lot. Well, I guess I am going to go for now.