What To Think??

My Mom has been sick for quite sometime. Shortly after my wedding 2 years ago she had neck surgery. It never really helped and come to find out only one of the four screws hit its mark. So she has (well had been) been in the process of getting ready for another surgery on her neck.

While we were at my moms over the Thanksgiving holiday I found out she was supposed to have another surgery! All she said, very matter of fact, was "Oops, I didn't have a chance to tell you about that one yet!

I guess the second surgery involve the chronic headaches she has. They will insert some type of electrode in her skull, run wires under her skin and down her back. Insert some kind of battery pack under the skin but in her hip are!

Then I get a call last week from her, saying that they cancelled surgery number one because they figure that it won't really help and that there are more tests to be done to find out why she has lost so much weight, even though she eats plenty. (she is 5'7" and weighs in at about 100 lbs!) As usual, very secretive and not telling me too much. I know she doesn't want me to worry. I was convinced after this conversation she was dying. She tells my she has a nerve disorder.

So last night I called my mom and she was not home from work yet, so I talked to my dad. I asked how she was feeling and he said "Oh about the same." We talked about how they cancelled the surgery and I asked what was next.

This is what he says "Oh well she had more blood work done but she still needs to have a bone marrow test."

Me "What, that is the first I am hearing about this." I could tell I wasn't supposed to know cause he got really quiet and said" She didn't want to worry you.".

Me again "Why a bone marrow test??"

He then barked at me and told me "I don't know!"

I know they know what is wrong, they just aren't telling me. It is really beginning to piss me off. I have watched my mom whither away to nothing over the last 2 years.

Not feeling the secrets at all!!!

Anyone ever heard of a bone marrow test to diagnose a nerve disorder??

My mom is on the left (in white t-shirt).

This picture was taken the night before my wedding.