I Can't Stop Thinking

My brain is going a mile a minute. What is even worse, I am a pessimist, that combined with the news from my mom, it is not working out very well. I lost it at work today. My department consists of me and 7 guys, so when I had my meltdown they certainly did not know what to do. Usually I am like a brick, nothing penetrates me and I show almost no emotion. Today though, that was a different story. I wish I had a popup blocker for my brain. LOL..wouldn't that be nice!!

I guess I must live in some sort of fantasy land, almost like I don't ever expect anything to happen to my mom. She is my best friend, the only person I have trusted most of my life. I can tell her my deepest secrets and usually the only person I would cry to or in front of. I can't really imagine my life without her, and yes, I know nobody lives forever. I guess I just never imagined that a women as wonderful, honest, loving and someone who never passes judgement on anyone, would have to go through something like this.

Mom, I am pretty sure don't read my blog and that is okay. I did leave my URL on your computer when I saw you over the Thanksgiving holiday. In case that you are reading it, I love you a lot.

I must say that I have since I have started blogging I have been able to let down that wall I have, that very thick wall. Maybe it is because I have been lucky enough to have regular readers who never pass judgement or have bad things to say. I would like to thank you all for that and most certainly can call you "my friends". If the world was filled with people like you all, it would be a much better place...