I Am A Little Nervous...

and I hate the feeling.

I never mentioned this before and I am not quite sure why. I blab the rest of my personal life all over this blog. I know that I am not the only woman who has gone through this, but when it is YOU it seems to be a different story.

This is a little more personal so I think I felt like I shouldn't post it. I know that there are alot of people out there who have and are still going through something scary in their lives. So with that in mind, this may be worth the post. Maybe there is someone out there who is going through something similar who is afraid to go and see the doctor in fear of finding out what it really could be. With that said.......................

For the last couple of weeks I have has pain in one of my breast's and more or less tried to ignore it. Well, ignoring it stopped yesterday.

On Tuesday I woke up with a burning sensation and a jabbing pain in my breast. I tried to put it in the back of my mind, mentioned it to my husband and kinda went on with my day. Yesterday I woke up and I had the same thing, the burning with jabbing pain except something new. My breast was swollen (as if I need them to be any bigger..LOL..atleast I can still find humor) so now I got a little concerned and I asked one of my close friends to either confirm or deny what I saw. She is very straight forward and never tells you what you want to hear. If your hair cut looks bad and you are trying to convince yourself that it looks good, then you go see her, she will tell ya what the deal really is!! (That's why I love her so much)

So anywho, she agreed (and yes I left my shirt on!!) so I made a call to my doctor. I had to leave a message but got a call back with in 30 minutes asking me to go to their other office tomorrow, which is now today, for a breast test. EEEkkkk!!!

I am pessimistic and I think this is the first time I have tried to be extremely optimistic. I looked around at a few sites for some ideas of what it could be. I always try to be prepared for the worst. So I did the WebMD symptom checker and I also check out the Susan G. Komen website. It could be anything from a blocked duct, to an infection or even breast cancer.

So with that in mind I cried a little, I was at work so I was able to keep from letting the river flow but it still scares me.

So today is the day and I am sure that everything will be just fine!!